summer has always been the hardest - johnny suh

prologue

Johnny and I have been together for two years, four months, and three days. I love him more than anything else in my life. He's the first person I think about when I wake up and the last before I go to bed. Sometimes it feels like my whole world is him.

It's crazy to think that our relationship begun in such a ridiculous way. I was just trying to pick up cup noodles from the corner store when he bumped into me and spilled a Slurpee all over my brand-new sweatshirt. I hated him for weeks after that. I couldn't stand how he always seemed so carefree, smiling through everything, while I stayed annoyed. But somehow, he still liked me, even when I didn't give him the time of day.

Johnny has this way of getting through to people. He got through to me. And now, two years later, I can't imagine life without him. But soon, I'll have to. He's leaving for Seoul soon to chase his dreams, and there's nothing I can do to stop him. Not that I would. I could never ask him to stay, even though every part of me wants to. It's selfish, but I wish his dream didn't mean leaving me.

He's been training at this K-pop company every summer, even before we met. I always knew he'd want to move to Seoul someday. I think I saw it coming from that very first summer we were together. But no matter how much I tried to prepare myself for this moment, it still hits me harder than I expected. For the past two years, four months, and three days, summer has always been the hardest.

(authors note: hi everyone! if you read this in anytime in the past three years, you'd know that my writing style here wasn't the best. i came across this story after i logged back into this account recently and because of how bad the writing style was, i decided to revise and republish the whole thing— so if the writing style or plot details are a little different, that's what's up with that. thanks to anyone that read my shitty story!)