Across the stars (BL)

Why I Was Born This Way?

Its been a day since the news about me are all over the country. I've tried to call my manager but all i got was "i will call you". What a big mess...
I am in my apartment since yesterday morning and i am scared. In all this time my phone is ringing non stop and all kind of paparazzi are just outside of my apartment complex. There was two or three that bribed the security man and they start beating at my door and one even tried to open it with a screw.
My heart is racing non stop and ive never been scared like this. What will i do?
My tears that i thought that dried are once again falling like crazy. All i saw on the news since yesterday is about me or about how i am famous because i sell myself for fame... "I didn't...." i yell desperately at a wall with a tv on it.
"Nobody believes me"... hic... fat tears are once again are falling.
"Ju Zheng... You bastard...."

I never wanted to be in a relationship especially since i was a idol trainee but he chased me and he always helped when i didnt know something... He was always there.
I never chased him, he was the one that made me love him. When i succeeded two years ago i was so happy and when we celebrated he was the one that confess his feelings for me. I didnt accept it in the beginning even though i was starting to fall for him but i wanted to become a idol. He didnt give up on me and eventually i confess my feelings for him last year... And now....

"ahhhh...." my chest... I feel a pain in my chest. I think its my heart that is broken.
I cant breath properly and i try to rise from my couch but i  become dizzy. I'm falling....

I open my eyes and i look around. I'm on the ground and my head is killing me. The tv is on and i sit and listen whats is on....
"Doctor can you tell us how the omega apeared?"
"Certainly. It all began a hundred years ago in the year 2005 when on the news on that time presented the first man that got pregnant. Later it was discredited and they said it was a woman that followed the sex change procedures, he was a trans woman that got pregnant with his  boyfriend. But later in rhe 2020 got a rumor that a boy was assaulted by a man after it described that he was drugged by a sweet smell and he couldnt stop himself."
" So basically it was the start of the omega? "
" Yes it was. Later it was discovered that a 10% of gay men population suffered a mutation that produces omega. "
" Is it possible that a hetero to become pregnant? "
" No"
"Doctor, can you tell our spectators how many omegas are globaly?"
"No, i can't. But i can tell you that in this moment there are more women population than men."
" How many?"
" There are 5 women for every man.".....

The tv close by himself and stops the news and any other light in the room..... I look to the window and i notice that its close to morning.
The clock is 4:10 and its all quiet.
I rise from the ground and i go in the bathroom. I look at my face and i see a big lump on my forehead. So thats why im having a headache. I think ive hit my head on the coffee table when i fallen...
I look at me in the mirror.... Why i was born a freak. Why did everything gone wrong....
Ive lost everything

I got nothing. All ive worked is gone, i gave him my heart and he stab me in the back... Ha.... Ha.. Ha. And he is Sully's fiancee
Ha... Ha... Ha.... Ive lost everything....

"AAAAAAHHHHHHHHHHH" i scream my frustration to no avail... Nobody will believe me that im the victim, nobody cares...
I smash the mirror with my fist until all i see is my bloody reflexion in hundred pieces. I go back to my kitchen and i start to search for the rest of the alcohol i have in the house and i drink my sorrow.

I m drunk... But the pain is still here... Its past 10 in the morning and i am hungry. Where did i put the phone?

"ahh got it" i open a page with pizza and i order something with meat. Im in the mood to gain weight. Because i was a idol for the past two years i had to keep my weight in check but now i dont... A big pizza... And...

The bank account is blocked

" What? What the fuck? "

I start to search my bank account and all i get is that all the fonds has been suspended.
I am dialling my bank...
"Hello, national bank. With what can i help you?"
" Hello, im calling because my account was blocked?"
"please give your name and your unique id code."
"My name is Xu Kai and id is 0077212zulu."
"Your account is blocked because its under police investigation because of suspicion of prostitution."

" WHAT THE FUCK"...
I close my phone and i smash it on the ground.
"You motherfucker. You destroyed my life... I got nothing now..ahhhhhhh."
Im screwed.... And alone. No money, no career, no boyfriend, no one cares. My tears are falling again and my head is starting to feel heavy. I take a swing of what i drink now and i feel the burning in my throat....
" Hahaha, Ju Zheng... You screw me and im gonna screw you.... Where is my laptop..."
I open my laptop and i put a second account and i enter. I open a photo slideshow and i play the last video..... It starts with a picture from 4 years ago when we were in the beginning and when you start to chase me. I saved all the pictures and those sweet messages between us and i wanted to make a surprise for our anniversary....
"What a joke..." now the video will be my revenge. You said i harassed you? Lets see how you will manage this....
I open my accounts and i upload on all sites  the video.... And i start a live chat... My last one.. I sit on the floor and my laptop on the coffee table.

At once i came online, i start with a few hundred views but it starts to rise.

"hello... I haven't been able to come online for the last few days but i need to do something.."
"No one believes me and I'm all alone... In the last few days ive lost everything i owned and ive worked for..... And for what..... For a motherfucker...."
"Ive been silent but i cant now. Ive left you a little present online and you can access the link to my bio and you will see  my side. I see how many are online... I dont think i ever hit a million views so easy....."
"I look at the screen and all i see in chat are" go die freak " and swear words. Since i start the chat no one asked me how i am.... But dont worry about it. This will be the.... hic...."
I can't  continue  and i start to cry again....
" The betrayal hurt me to deep. I always thought i can get to your hearts and that i could share with you my passion to sing, to be happy..... Share my happiness... But now all i got is betrayal, brokenhearted, drunk... desperation.."
"All the news on the internet are true..... I Am An Omega... This is me... That filthy omega... I never wanted to be born this way..... I regret falling in love with Ju Zheng.... I... This.... This will be the last time you will see me.... This is my good bye... Thank you manager. You've been the best, thank you for being there for me. Thank you... My best doctor. You've been an angel and a good friend to me... For the rest of you, go fuck yourself. "

I closed the chat  and i get up, i take the bottle of votca and i open my door. Im in my pijama but i dont care. There is no one at the door, i take the car keys and i go down in the parking lot. I drive my car to nowhere

Since 20 minutes ago, the account of Xu Kai is running a video...  pictures of him and Ju Zheng, fragments of a birthday celebration  that only two people was present....
".... Is this for me Ju Zheng?..... Ofcourse, its your birthday today. Now now, blow the candles... Happy bday my love"(kissing sounds).. Goes on the knees... "my rabbit i love you and i want to be with you for  the rest of my life. I will be with you for better and worse."
"... I love you too, Ju Zheng..."

The audience is silent because of the video and there are still fragments and pictures...
" Do you want to be with me?"..." I do but.." , ." I want to tell everyone about us",..... " But what about the media....."... " What are you afraid, i will be with you, i love you..."
The video becomes viral in one hour and a half but Xu Kai will not know.

A car is speeding in the highway... Inside is a young man with fair skin. His eyes are hazy like he can't see the road ahead.... I front of him its a cliff....