we make it to the hospital after a very chaotic ride being with Lando has some struggles with it he is easily panicked so when Max braked a little late he freaked out. in the little time we have known each other we have became very close its like a light sparked when we saw each other at the bar. I never thought I would be walking into a hospital with Lando and Max with me but i'm so glad they are here with me. I don't know what I would do without them with me.
we get to the room hes is being taken into surgery again they found more internal bleeding late last night after we left. I turned to Max who looked as if he hadn't slept in days. the time I've known Max hes wanted to get close after seeing what I've been going through. I feel bad putting these two through this. I am a little worried that when finally brake they won't want to be around me anymore and I think its coming very quickly. I don't want them to see me like that so I will just have to wait till their both asleep tonight.
My dad just got back from surgery hes awake and we got him food. hes talking to Max and Lando. I'm talking to my mom outside the room telling her what has happened shes out of the country for work right now so I wouldn't even be able to go stay with her. I let her know some friends are staying with me I'm not going to tell her who it is. I hand up the phone and walk back into the room to face my dad who I know is going to be mad at me for lieing to him about where I was going that night.
we go back to the house to have dinner. Max then takes a VIP pass out of his pocket and hands it to me. I have now really lost it there goes my plan to hold it in till there both asleep. Max comes over and hugs me and we sit on the couch the rest of the night with soft music playing in the background playing board games. were planing on going shopping tomorrow as Max and Lando didn't bring enough cloths. we all go to bed I put my headphones on and start crying again not noticing Max waking up when he hears me he wakes Lando too as Max isn't very good at calming people down. when I feel soft hands on mine I start to panic running to the bathroom practically throwing my self onto the floor in front of the toilet Max running into the bathroom not far behind is Lando.
TW panic attack
I feel myself going into a full on panic attack with Lando and Max sitting with me not sure what to do so Lando calls Carlos who answers quickly. " whats wrong, Lando you never call this late." he says "Amara is having a panic attack me and Max weren't sure what to so I called you" Lando says "send me the address I will be there" he says Lando sends him the address Lando Is trying to get my breathing back to normal but It doesn't work Max goes to let Carlos in I see Carlos. He bends down in front of me and takes my hands tightly. Lando and Max are just watching us Carlos ask Max to get me some water. I finally calm down enough to get up and go sit in the chair in my room. none of us sleep for the rest of the night.
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Carlos stays with us for the day he poles me to the side and asks me if I think Lando may like him more that a friend. I convince him to ask him so he does he walks back over to Lando and Max. Grabs Lando and asks him Lando get all excited and says yes. Max takes the opportunity to ask me to I obviously says yes so we go on a double tonight we go buy outfits for out dates.
