i didn't mean to kill her. I promise i didn't.
Today is the 25th of January my birthday or should i say in other words the day my mother died . I haven't celebrated my birthday for 6 years if I'm correct it'll be 7 years today since i'm turning 7 , there isn't a good reason to celebrate it. I mean who celebrates someone's death especially if it's their mothers they sure are insane they need help i tell you , my father himself made it clear that 25th of January is just a normal day. you know, he has every right to say that since i killed the love of his life . maybe if i wasn't born maybe then dad would've been happy ; if i weren't alive mom would be here with dad then they'd both be happy , i've lasted 7 years can't end it now i must make something out of it i can't and i won't disappoint her . i was laying on the grass at the field close to my house when Suddenly out of nowhere a cat interrupted my writing by jumping on my notebook i was shocked and i didn't know what to do but then i carefully grabbed the cat by the back of it's neck gently ; just copying what i saw on tv and i started checking if it was injured her shiny gold collar caught my attention a name was burnt or carved on it "Giselle, what a pretty name , your owner has quite a taste" i mumbled as i placed her on my lap to place my stuff in my bag and then stood up with her in my arms then abruptly a male voice started shouting with concern from afar saying something in French "Giselle Kitty où es-tu ? Elle j'ai ta nourriture préférée (giselle kitty where are you ? elle i have your favorite food)" i slowly walked towards the voice keeping my guard up giselle still in my arms my heart beating with fear ; this cat is sure hungry she's nibbling on my finger . i then quietly shouted out a few inches away from the voice "pardon je pense que j'ai ton chat (excuse me i think i have your cat)" . A boy with blonde hair came out from behind the apple tree "GISELLE!" he shouted running towards me i backed away a little but then giselle jumped from my arms and ran towards him i guess it's because of the food the boy brought or she smelled her owner "merci madam" the boy said sighing in relief after caressing the cats head gently " aucun problème" i responded with a slight smile, owner or not i hope he takes great care of her after that ava ; my maid called for me from afar not very far though mind you "MY LADY IT'S TIME FOR LUNCH" she yelled, i bowed slightly at the boy as a sort of respect and said goodbye before running to ava.
with ava~
"who was that sunshine looking boy, my lady" ava asked as we were walking home me following before her "someone who lost his cat her names giselle it suits her" i then ran to her so we were next to eachother "and i told you to stop calling me my lady my father isn't here and those snitches" i responded in a quite a angry tone pouting as my eyes scanned around the street "i'm sorry my lady but i have to call you that as long as i'm doing my job" ava said patting my head gently with a smile on her face. We walked the rest of the way home in silence ava hand grabbing mine; her hand was soothing she fills that gap but she can never replace my mother even tho i haven't seen my mother no one and i mean no one can take her place.
"Today your father wont be coming to eat dinner, he's busy with work. i apolgize my lady" ava told me as she placed the plate of food infront of me, i'm not surprised, the last time he ate with me ; which was a long time ago that i can't remember the date i wish not to as that day ended tragically, he didn't finish his food i'm sure i made him lose his appetite , he couldn't bare the thought of eating with his wife's killer. i couldn't touch my food just by the thought of it so i grabbed my plate and went straight to the kitchen "ava can you give this to the people in need or give it to your friends. the food is untouched don't count it as rude please" i said placing the plate on the table there and left before ava said anything ignoring the whispers and the dirty looks. I went straight to my room and shut the door before sitting infront of my desk which is infront of a window that faces my neighbors house to organize my stuff, i guess thats the storage room infront of me because the lights rarely open, i never saw them there or even leaving their house ; i'm kind of curious about who lives there suddenly i saw the light open revealing a room full of boxes and the same blonde boy from earlier walked in with the cat fighting him which ended with him letting her go. He then came near the window about to close the curtains but noticed me staring at him and we made eye contact for a quick minute i then snapped out of it and i caught a sight of a tiny smile; he had a dimple..., before i switched off the lights quickly and hopped into bed in awe. i hope he doesn't think i'm a weirdo or something. i buried my face into the pillow and screamed quietly in it as a tossed and turned. today was different than usual. As a poem once said "and some feel happiness rarely"
never guessed this day would've changed my life and flipped it upside down....
----------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------i apologize for this ass writing (sorry for cussing?) i had to edit this and thank you so much for reading just the first part and i am so sorry for taking so long on this. i got hit by a bus joking mb i was busy with school and not only that i have no idea how to finish this i have lost all hope in my writing. <3
