Our Place

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Going back to school felt different for both of them. Robin with feeling of not being enough was more agressive. He almost dig his own grave, so who could blame him.

Robin didn't show it outside. He made his peace with death down there, when he dug his grave with bare hands. For first he wanted to defy the order from Grabber.

What worst could happened then digging his grave. He knew he was wrong. There was so many thing that could have happened. So he dug it. Slowly with disgust? Yeah, but still, he did.

He wanted to reach out to Finn but he didn't want to look like shit when they see each other again.

That sounded silly after few days, but but maybe he just wasn't ready to confront outside of his house. Today he is ready. He will talk to him.

But the thought why Finn didn't reach out screamed in his mind the whole time.

On the other hand Finn shut himself from anyone after that night. The night it ended, something died in him and he could show any signs.

It wasn't like he couldn't actually, but he love his sister too much. This would hurt her. More then his kidnaping he thinks. And the thought of showing it, making it real meant for him falling apart.

And he doesn't feel like putting those pieces together. He needs to hold them. Or some of them might get lost.

After getting shower that night he felt the same. Still so dirty and disgusted. Like blood stains were all over him. Especially his hands.

He thought going back to school will put him together but the stares makes it worst. He's the one who killed someone.

Even if it's serial killer it was what it was. And the environment made it clear too.

At least the bullying stopped for now. Only if they knew how fragile he felt now. Like one bad step and he falls into never ending nightmare.

He thought maybe reach out to Robin would help. But he couldn't. Even the face of his sister was for few days full of pity, before one day he told her to stop looking at him like that.

She understood. How couldn't she, she's his sister, she knew everything what was happening after he got home. Every melt down, panic attack and about lot of nightmares. They lived in same house after all.

But he could stand the thought of Robin looking at him differently that before. It would break him and he can't think of why.

But today, after 2 weeks from the incident or you could say first day they're both in school, he's going to talk to him. He felt so bad for not trying sooner. Not trying sooner killing that bastard.

Only after getting out of it, he realized what happened.

It's lunch break. Time when they met up before. Before Cafeteria were some tables for students and little farther away there was a brick wall. Next to it Finn and Robin sat and ate lunch together.

When Robin left cafeteria to get there Finn was already there. Sitting and watching the door out of cafeteria. Yet when he seen him he could look at him for long.

Turning his face away to not see any expression changes in Robins face. He didn't eat right now. It was obvious he's waiting for someone. For Robin.

But even after this visible conclusion, Robin still thought for a second, that maybe Finn didn't want him there. Like some walking trigger. And he didn't blame him.

How could he. He knew how difficult it is, to go back to normal life. So he sit next to him, leaving enough space between them so Finn would feel okay. Safe.

But Robin honestly don't know what Finn wants, he don't know if he wants to be alone, talk or even just company. He surely hopes he didn't faked up.

"What's up Finn?"

He asks sliding his sight to actually see Finn next to him. Maybe that's not completely right question right now, if he just thought about it more.

"Trying to be fine, nothing new. What about you?"

He looks at Robin and smiles. Robin feels the huge relief, like a weight fell of his shoulder. He's so glad, that reunion friendship with Finn is going alright.

That there change of getting back, back into days before Grabber. Robin didn't even realize it, but it sounded foolish. Deep down he knows, that things can't be the same after what happened.

But boy can dream.

"Catching up on what I missed, but-"

Robin don't know how to express his feeling, about not actually feeling welcome, from his status dead. Because everyone assumed once you were taken, that you are.

And he was technically dead for everyone for a weeks. It felt strange. And it still does.

Finn looks at him with understanding expression. Oh yeah, how could Robin forget. He knows how he feel.

Even though it feels different for them, it is still the same. Expect one small detail.

One's the killer and second is the second one is the supposed to be dead.

A/n i think it's gonna be veery sad 😔👍 because my dear Robin is going to have existence crisis, and Finn? got plans for him too ;)