The Rain

Friend or Foe?

I groan as I start to wake up, the stale taste of cigarettes and beer lingering on my tongue as I yawn. Ugh, gross. I force my eyes open and blink a few times, face to face with a wall. I furrow my brow at it in confusion, I don't sleep next to the wall... A smile spreads across my face as I remember I'm in Noels bed, in Noels house and its Noels arms that are wrapped around me. I shift quietly, turning to face him and hes sound asleep, snoring loudly that makes me groan inwardly. Jesus, he sounds like a car tyre stuck in mud. I slip out the bed and grab a cigarette, tiptoeing into the living room to find the TV on quietly and Liam crashed out on the couch, snoring loudly too. God, theres no escape! I sneak into the kitchen and close the door over, switching the kettle on. I lean against the bunker light up and exhale deeply staring up at the cracked and damaged ceiling as the smoke swirls into the air.

How the fuck did I go from not really knowing anyone to crashing over at the hot guys house and hopefully being friends with his little brother? Such a massive leap. I'm not complaining, in fact I'm over the fucking moon. Lifes too short to worry about oh but I'm such a slut, oh what if he doesn't like me or what if that funky scar I have puts him off? Pfft please, fuck that for a laugh! I chose to just jump straight in with Noel even though Liam likes me because I'd rather maybe lose him a friend than forever think what if. Plus, Noel plays guitar, that to me is just wonderful. Oppertunity of my life, bang a hot musician! The kettle clicks off and I grab some cups from the drainer, rinsing them out and making some tea for Noel and I. I sneak passed Liam not wanting to wake him knowing that he was up early for the job centre and probably wants to sleep a bit longer. I open the door with my foot kicking it closed behind me. Noels eyes blink open, that wonderful shade of blue finally connecting with my green and he smiles, really smiles like I'm the greatest thing in the world. I know my smile is the same on my face and I pass him his tea, he grins taking a sip.

"How did you know I took sugar and two sugars at that?" He asks as I crawl back into bed with him, cradling my tea. I grab my cigarettes, lighting up and offering one to Noel who takes it and lights up.

"Lucky guess," I smirk and really its because it came up in our late night conversation. He takes milk and two and it must be proper strong. I'm the same but without sugar, I hate sugar. He makes an 'mmm' noise in the back of his throat and he takes the cigarette from his mouth with a small pop.

"Your favourite colour is blue," Noel says furrowing his brow as he remembers and I smile nodding.

"Your favourite colour is blue too," I say and he smiles, kissing my temple. Actually, my favourite colour was green but one look into his eyes and it was blue. I'd just never seen eyes so blue like his before and it just took over kinda thing. I can't explain it. Noel balances an ashtray on his lap and I flick my cigarette ash into it, inhaling deeply. Hes smoking contently, staring at the walls with a smile.

"You have an obsession with Johnny Marr," He says with a smirk and I look at him, an expression of 'whats your point?' on my face. Oh, wait, he likes him too.

"So do you," I say with a chuckle and he grins, nodding. He sips his tea, throwing an arm around my shoulders and puffing thoughtfully on his cigarette. I do the same, enjoying the combined warmth of our bodies under the duvet. Oh human contact, how I've missed it. I mean yeah, I've got my sisters and my mum and my nephews but... Having someone wrap their arms around you, even if its just a friend that makes it so much better. It makes living easier having someone there and Noel makes me smile. Thats all I want, I'm not bothered by fucking romance and all that shite, I just want to laugh and smile and enjoy life.