Whispers of Regret

Chapitre 15

15

"A-Ali, I'm sorry. I-I didn't k-know you were f-feeling like that..."

Ithen can't find the words to say; he's speechless. Even apologies seem useless in front of Alice, who is sobbing loudly, holding onto her chest and covering her mouth. Her scent is filled with pain, sadness, longing, guilt, betrayal, and regret. There's so much going through.

"T-That's the problem, I-then. You never know w-what's going on," Alice shakes her head, trying to calm herself a little though it's not working.

"You never know how it feels to see the pity in other people's eyes for you," she says, trying to subside her sobbing.

"You know, Ithen, when I gave birth to Tomy, my little baby, I was the happiest. When I held his tiny body in my arms, looking at me with his adorable doe eyes, I questioned myself that time: How can I call this little angel in my arms a m-mistake? I felt so s-shameful to feel distant from my pup, but I can't do anything when my pup was s-snatched away from me that time by your m-mom. I wanted you to come and tell your mom to give my baby back, but you never did. Because you never were there for me every time I needed you. You were never there when I first fed my b-baby from my chest to see how precious the moment was for me. You were never there when I wanted to tell you that I wanted to give a name to my p-pup. You were never there when I was being h-harmed by your m-mother. You never stood up for me when your mom and grandma i-insulted me, saying dirty words to me. You never were there when I went for our pup shopping a-alone. You know how people look at me in pity, thinking I was a single parent for my baby because I have no scent on me of an alpha to show that I am m-mated...." Alice's painful voice reaches Ithen's soul, tearing him apart at every painful sadness. But what hits most is his heart and soul.

"M-My mother h-harmed you?" Ithen asks in shock and disbelief. He can't believe it. His mother and grandma harassed his mate behind his back, and he never knew about that.

What kind of a mate am I? Yes, he knows his family doesn't like Alice, but hitting her? It's too far. How did he not notice?

"W-Why didn't you tell me, Ali?" He asks, going closer, hearing that his family hit his omega behind him. His wolf feels restless, almost curling himself into a ball in shame and regret. He can't face his omega, feeling so small in front of her.

"Tell you? How could I tell you? Would you have believed me? You didn't even like my presence near you. You never were there in any moment of my life. I was alone from the start till now," she mutters painfully.

"You never know how it feels to be neglected by your own mate. You don't know how hurtful it is when your alpha says that he's ashamed of you. You will never know how much pain and insecurity I feel when you m-marked me and said it was just a－a m-mistake!! and you never wanted a mate at the first place!! You will never know how my wolf was whimpering in s-shame and longing when you never came to care for us when we were in h-heat－y-you will never know the pain of having a beautiful and dreamy night－m-making l-love with your mate just to hear in the morning that it was just another mistake!! You never saw the grief and l-longing in my eyes when you were talking to our unborn p-pup, ignoring the pleads of my tiredness and needing your c-comfort!"

"If you can't love me and never wanted me in the first place!! You should've rejected me!! Instead of marking me just to say it was MISTAKE!! It's not my fault you can't control your own FUCKING wolf!! You just did that to yourself, then fucking be a MAN and take the responsibility!!! Instead of blaming me that you couldn't control it!!" She shouts in his face, saying all the things she was holding for six years living with Ithen.

Ithen can't control it and falls down on his knees; he lost his strength, looking down and crying in utmost regret. Feeling so much pain and guilt hearing all the deeds he did to Alice, his precious omega. Hearing she wanted another mate, he feels the heart in his chest going to stop anytime. He can't breathe; the heaviness in his chest is getting worse and worse.

"Now tell me after all of this－how can I forgive you? How can I forget all the pain and deep heartbreak I have gone through－you also snatched my only happiness, Ithen, that was my little pup."

"And now you have the guts to say SORRY! And ask for forgiveness－No, Ithen, no. It's not that easy."

Alice wipes her tears harshly and looks down at the loudly crying Trueblood who once was so prideful and strong is now looking so weak and vulnerable, kneeling down in front of a mere omega begging for forgiveness.

Alice would've melted and instantly hugged her alpha and comforted him; she can't see the strongest breed this vulnerable in front of the weakest kind and forgive him immediately, but only if it was four years ago when she still had hope of being with her mate－but now there's no forgiveness.

"P-Please..." Ithen pleads.

"No. I will never forgive you for what you did to me." She coldly says and walks away from there, leaving a begging and crying Trueblood alone with his whimpering wolf and a heart filled with regret and sadness.

Ithen sits on the floor, back leaning on the railing, head in his hands, sobbing non-stop.