The Heart- Byler (DISCONTINUED)

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  Will walks back to his room.. a million thoughts racing through his mind.. he lays down and smothering his face into his pillow.

He starts to think clearly. Like about mike, the painting, what he said. Why he didn't just tell the truth. Would mike still be upset if he told the truth? What if... what if...

There was a knock on his closed door; but he couldn't hear it over his overwhelming thoughts flooding his head.

Another knock.

This one he heard. His head went blank for a second... then it was flooded again.. flooded with.. "was I talking out loud?" "Did someone hear me" "what if it's el and she can read my mind..!"

Another knock this time it was louder..

Will jumped up. Waited a second.. then walked up to his door. He opened the door to Mike.. he was about to knock again. "Oh! Uhh hi!" Mike said he sounded shocked or confused.. or both? Even though he was the one who knocked? "Uhm Hi..?"  Will said awkwardly.
"So uh.. I wanted to talk to you.."
"Oh.. okay!"
Will moved away from the doorway welcoming Mike to walk in.. Mike walked in and sat on wills bed. Will closed the door and quickly followed behind him. Will sat on his bed next to him.. not to close to him to make it awkward but not far away to make it... well... awkward as well...
  "So I wanted to talk to you about something" says mike while he stretched his arms down touching the bed then squeezing it with both hands.
"Okay.. uhm what is it..?"
"Oh right" mike loosens his grip on the bed "well I was talking with el and.. she said she didn't know about the painting... and..." will started panicking... "In her letters she mentioned you were painting something but.. well I don't know she didn't really know what it was.." mike said placing his hand on his legs. Will panicking coming up with anything he can says "Oh uhm I guess she forgot idk... she uh.. she asked for it.. when we.. when we moved.. so she must of just forgot... over.. uh overtime.. yeah and I'm.. I don't know.."
"Oh.." Mike says slowly. "I just thought... I dont know. I guess she could've forgotten so I g-"

"FINE!!" Will interrupted him "Fine.." he felt like he was going to cry and his eyes had tears in them.. he couldn't see but he didn't want to blink or he would cry.. "I.. I lied... and well... friends don't lie.. so if you like hate me now and never want to see me again that's fine... I mean it's not fine but.. I won't stop you and.. I'm really really sorry..." Will looks down so he doesn't have to look Mike in the eye.. "WHAT? no! No! NO!! Why would ever think that I could hate you?!"
"I- I don't know.."
"Will! I could never hate you! You know that right! It's not your fault! You know that! I love you will! I could never hate you! And nothing could ever change that!!"
...
I love you will... that's all that Will could focus on

He loves me? As a friend.. yeah as a friend.. or maybe.. no "I love you will"
He said he loves me... he couldn't say I love you el.... He said it to me "I love you will.." I'm over thinking it.. he doesn't love me.. he's probably just lying to make me feel better.. like what I did to him. He probably hates me..

Will started crying..

I hate you will..