SwanQueen: I Will Save You

Chapter 2

Trigger warning ‼️‼️‼️‼️‼️ SUICIDAL THOUGHTS!!!!!!!!

"I don't know what to do. I'm always fucking up and hurting the people I love. What good am I if all I do is cause them pain??? Sometimes I wish I died over there." I say.

"And why about your son?? And I also heard you found out that you had a daughter when you came back home.. What about them?? Don't you want to be there for them?" My therapist ask.

"Of course.. They are the only reason I'm breathing now."

"Emma.. I'm going to ask you something and I want you to be honest. Can you do that?" She ask and I nod my head. "Are you thinking about killing your self?"

"Yes."

"Okay. Are you staying alone?"

"No.. Not really.. I'm still at Regina's but I told her I was coming to get my stuff and move out."

"I think you should stay.. And if try and move out, I have no other choice but to call your lieutenant."

"Understood ma'am."

"I'm driving you home."

"I can drive there on my own, but thank you."

"I wasn't asking.. Either I drive you, or I get one of your army soldiers to drive you."

"I'm their leader, I don't need them knowing I can't take care of my self."

"And what do you think will be going through their minds if you kill yourself Emma?"

"You can take me home." I say and she grabs her purse and keys.. I follow her outside and head to my house..

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"You okay?" You were quiet the whole ride here.

"I'm fine.. Thank You for the ride Ma'am." I say and she opens her car door. "You don't have to walk me to the door.. I can manage."

"Let's go Emma." We walk to the door and knock because I had to leave my keys at the office..

"I'll be right there." I hear Regina says.

"Oh god." I say when I look at My therapist and think about how Regina is going to act.

"I'm sorry I was.. Oh.. Emma hey I was..." She stops talking when she see my therapist. "Are fucking serious?" She looks at me and say.

"Hello.. My name is Rachel Baker." Dr. Baker holds her hand out and Regina just looks at her.

"Who are you?? One of Emma's one night stands." Regina asks and I just roll my eyes..

"Good night Dr. Baker. Thank you for driving me home. I'll have my report by the end of the day." I say before moving past Regina.

"I'm sorry Doctor?" Regina asks.

"Again.. Hello I'm Rachel Baker. Dr. Baker exactly.. I'm Emma's Therapist.. I work with Military Soldiers."

"Oh my god.. I'm sorry I thought.."

"I know what you thought and also understand why, but Emma is going through a lot right now and she's.."

"Really?? She's going through a lot??? What about what I'm going through??? She is the one who went out and fucked someone last night because that's what she does.. She always try and.."

"I'm going to stop you right that Madam Mayor.. There is nothing you can tell me about Emma that I don't already know.. What I can tell you is that she has changed.. Yes, she did go out and sleep with someone last night because she was under the impression that you lied to her and that you.."

"But she didn't give me time to explain and.."

"Please let me finish.. Emma needs you right now.. She is incredibly sorry for her actions and she feels bad.."

"She feels bad??? She can't feel that bad about her actions because she shouldn't have done it, so no.. She doesn't feel bad."

"She told me she wish she would have died over there.. Back when she was at war.. She's a good soldier... Did she tell you that she saved 15 people on her team and brought them home safe to their families.. She carried one of the women on her back and ran 8 miles to safety and ran back to get someone else.. That's the type of soldiers we need.. People like Emma.. She said she wanted them to make it home to their families because that's all she wanted to do.. She also told me she is thinking about killing her self.. I brought her here because I don't trust her to be alone.."

"She said that?"

"Yes.. She said all she do is cause pain to the people she love.. I'm guessing she wants to kill herself because she thinks that will be the easy way out.. You need to talk to her."

"I'm not in a position to tell her which way to go.. I love her and I don't want to lose her.. You have to help me.. Tell her she can't do this.. On my god and Henry.. What about him, did she think about him??"

"Actually.. She said Henry is only reason she is still here.. She said you are too, but she's hurt you so much that she can't take hurting you any longer.." Dr. Baker says..

"What??" Regina says.. "EMMA!!!" Regina yells..

"What?" I ask dryly.

"Is what she said true?"

"Which part?" I say.

"All of it.. Are you thinking about killing your self again?"

"What's it to you? You don't care."

"Emma.. Yes I do and I'll be damned if you kill yourself and leave me here alone.."

"You'll have Robin.. I'm sure he'll keep you company." I say walking away..

"Cut the shit Emma.. You know damn well that is over."

"Do I ?"

"I'm leaving.. I'll see at the end of the week Emma."

"Yes ma'am.. And Thank You.. For everything.." I say to her.

"You're welcome.. Good night Madam Mayor.. Good night Emma."

"Good night and Thank You for bringing her home.."

"You're welcome."

Regina close the door and looks at me. I don't know what to say because I'm lost of words and I'm tired...

"I talked to your mother today." Regina says.

"Yeah?"

"She told me that you told Henry you love him and that you wish you were in his life more.. That there is a lot he may not understand but if he needs anything he should ask me because I will have all the answers.. You're talking like you're leaving or something.. We're you planning on talking your life today? She asks and I walk away. "Emma.. We are taking about this.."

"I'm done talking."

"You wish you had died over there huh?" She asks.

"Yes!!! I wish I had died over there!!! At least you wouldn't be in pain all the time around me.. I know I'm fucked up and I'm sorry.."

"So you were just going to leave us.. What I'm I going to do with Two kids by myself?"

"Regina I'm.. Wait what??? Two kids."

"What are you talking about?"

"You just said two kids.. Are you pregnant?" I ask.

"I don't know what you're talking about.. You're hearing things.. I said we're you just going to leave the two of us here.."

"I really can't take the lying right now, so please don't lie to me.. Are you pregnant?"

"Emma.."

"Damn it Regina.. Yes or No??"

"Yes."