I Need You

1. Jin

《♡》Kim Seokjin,

When he was younger he had never thought it was possible for him to end up in an mental institution, no not Kim Seokjin- or known as simply Jin by his friends. But here he was.

She had broke his spirit after breaking his heart.

When he started dating her, she has given him an option. Her or his friends, so he had cut off all strings with his past friends: Yoongi, Hoseok, Namjoon, Jimin, Taehyung and Jungkook- because he thought that she was the one. She had been blinding him to see the truth. The one person that would be able to make him smile when times got hard. Eventually she had told him that his friends died, suicide because he wasn't there for them. She cursed at him, made him feel so small and broken inside.

"Mr. Kim, it's time for your medication".

He didn't look up from his bed. Clothed in a pair of black shorts and a white shirt. They didn't trust him with a belt so he had to pull his shorts up after every five steps.

"Mr. Kim".

This time he looked up since he knew that you wouldn't leave without a reaction. Carefully he sat up right, looking at the six rose petals laying on the floor next to his bed.

When he looked up he saw you sitting in the only chair in the whole room. Your legs were crossed and a notebook full of scribbles was laying on your lap.

"Yes" he said as he sat up.

You give him a glass of water and the same white pill he had to take every day. Jin sighed as he swallowed the pill, drank the contents of the glass and showed you that he swallowed the pill before laying back on his bed- laying in the comfortable fetus position.

"Mr. Kim, can you go back to the date April 29th and tell me what was going through your mind".

He snorted softly, knowing exactly what you were searching for.

Maybe it would be a good idea to tell this woman what was going through his mind. "I felt guilty".

He saw you writing something down in your notebook before looking up at him again.

"Why did you feel guilty, what was going on that made you feel guilty".

Why was I feeling guilty? That's a stupid question.

"They were all going through a rough time" he said softly, his hand going through his soft brown locks. "But I wasnt there for them".

You nod as you look at the broken man in front of you, laying on the bed in a fetus position as he stared something in front of him.

"What were they going through".

"I don't know. She told me they died, I never had the chance to say goodbye, to tell them how sorry I am for all I have done to them. My deongsaengs". A soft sob leaves his mouth as he hides his face in his pillow.

Normally he wouldn't talk after taking his medication. You were surprised by how much he was talking right now, he was slightly getting better. Although you did wish you could have told him about his friends, but you had no idea who they were and if they are even real. Some of the patients were mourning for non existing friends.

Kim Seokjin had been here for weeks now and you had found out that his neighbour had saved him from a suicide attempt. Apparently he had a mental breakdown after being stopped from taking his life.

All you wanted was to comfort him, tell him it would be okay. But was it? He felt so bad about the situation with his friends. You figured that the white rose petals on the floor represented them- the ones he lost.