Drive ~Minsung&Hyunlix~

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Felix's entire flight home was filled with anxiety and guilt. As much as he longed for Changbin over the years, now that his wish had finally come true, he wished it hadn't.

When the plane landed, he collected his bag and made his way to the exit.

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Hyunjin arrived at the airport a half hour early, anticipating the arrival of his boyfriend. Although he had only been gone a day, it felt like an eternity.

Finally, he was able to spot the blonde and immediately ran to him, pulling him into an embrace. Unusually, Felix wasn't hugging back and was instead standing stiff as a board.

Hyunjin grew worried, pulling away just slightly to run his hands over Felix's face, looking for any signs of illness. "Are you okay Lix? Did something happen? Are you sick? Were you robbed? Did someone die?!"

The other shook his head, the slightest smile breaking his poker face, "No, I'm fine. Nothing bad happened to me. No one died. I just have some jetlag."

Hyunjin sighed in relief, leading Felix to the car, "I'm glad everything went well for you, Love."

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Felix couldn't bare the car ride home. He didn't know whose apartment they were driving to, but it wouldn't matter either way; Hyunjin wouldn't let him go so easily.

He mentally rehearsed what he was going to say, leg bouncing nervously.

"Are you sure you're okay Lix?"

"Yeah, all good. You don't need to worry about me." He cursed himself, knowing that everything was not, in fact, all good.

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Hyunjin pulled up Felix's apartment building, getting out of the car with him. He followed him up silently, still sensing that something was off.

When they made it inside, Felix shut the door, turning to meet Hyunjin's eyes.

"Can I talk to you about something?" He asked, fidgeting with his fingers at his side.

"Of course, Baby, what's up?"

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"I want to start by saying that I'm really sorry, and I know I did the wrong thing. I understand if you hate me after this," he said, watching as Hyunjin's eyes immediately widened and began glossing over. "Last night I was really out of it. I had traveled that morning then went to the concert and got high off adrenaline. When I went to bed, I was having trouble falling asleep since I was alone. Changbin came to my door at that same time and asked to come in. We were getting along well all day, so I let him in and we started talking. I really dont know what I was thinking when I invited him to stay, but I really regret it now. We were just hanging out when he kissed me. I know that it was wrong, but I didn't stop him. Apparently the room got hot at night, so he took off our shirts while I was sleeping. I don't think things went any further than a kiss, but I can't remember. I asked Changbin, and he said that's all that happened. I'm so sorry Hyunjin. I didn't mean to do any of this."

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Hyunjin took a minute to process Felix's words, dumbfounded. He had been cheated on by the first boy he trusted in almost ten years. He was more upset at himself for being foolish in the first place, believing Felix was any different from the others. No one ever actually cared about him, they were just after his pretty looks.

Felix began speaking again, his voice cracking with tears running down his face, "I know it was wrong of me. I hate myself. Please though, could you give me another chance? Even if it's just one more day? I missed you so much, Jinnie."

Head hung, Hyunjin turned to leave. "Don t call me that."

"Please Hyunjin, I'm begging you. Please at least think about it. I love you so much I could die. I should die for doing this to you, but I'm too selfish and need more of you before I go. I need your sweet little drawings on the calender and your singing in the shower. I need your stupid jokes and overwhelmingly adorable personality. Please at least think things over before you leave me. I need you so bad, Hyunjin. You're my whole world."

Hyunjin couldn't stop the tears from leaving his eyes, running out of the building. He stopped at his car, ready to get away already.