Love on the Road

"were not friends"

"what made me tough almost killed me"
-they dont need to understand - andy black
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"well, who do we have here?" a blonde guy said before he took a sip from his red cup, he had blue eyes and chubby cheeks the one that could turn red when its too cold or the one that could blush instantly

"lexie. my classmate" harry let go of my hand and moved to allison and wrapped his hands around her tiny model waists. i almost puked at the sight

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"hey, lexie right?" a girl with a violet hair came to me and handed me a drink, i accepted it although im not planning to drink it since i had one at ash's place.

"yeah" i smiled at her and she returned it

"come, sit with us. youre gonna have fun." she took my hand and drag me to where the others are sitting.

"im jane" said the girl who drag me somehow the way she dress reminds me of the witch girl from the movie beastly, beautiful and mysterious at the same time.

"these are our friends. justin, luke, mindy, allison ed, and cal." she pointed to each one but i didnt bother to memorize it.

i sat between the blonde guy and harry. we where playing spin the bottle for the last 30mins with them doing the weirdest dares ever. harry was laughing so hard all the time, which made me smile from time to time until it landed on harry which of course result to a very hot and disgusting make out session with allison. in front of us. i caught harry looking at me before allison stood up and sat on harry's lap. i shouldnt be looking but at the same time it felt like i should be looking, it felt weird. i felt my stomach tighten or turn or whatever that feels weird.

"i think we dont need to spin it anymore since its just her who is left?" mindy smiled. i knew who she was since there are only three girls which is allison and jane which leaves her to be a choice to be mindy.

"lets give her the classic, seven minutes in heaven with justin" i stare at allison, she wears a poker face but i can see through it, she's smirking like a bitch, and i would like to claw her face.

"no" everyones attention went to harry including mine.

"dont be a party pooper harry, there is a twist, seven minutes without touching or anything, just locked there, lets see how far justin can go" allison laced his arms around harry's arms while she rests her head on harry's shoulder and i think i saw her smirk before she puts back that innocent smile of her.

"whatever" harry said. my annoyance with allison made me say yes. i stood up a little bit of scared as i made my way into allisons closet full of clothes that smell disgustingly sweet i want to rip my nose out. i sat down to the left and justin to the right. i immediately got scared the moment the closets door closed.

"so, how did you and harry become friends?" he seemed friendly

"were not friends, he is my classmate" i saw him smile throught the lights coming from the small crack of the door.

"oh" he moved closer i tried moving back but was stopped by the wall meeting my back. fuck.

"uhmmm please---" i was stopped when he placed his hands on my thighs i cringed at his warm hands. why did i even say yes to this.

"dont get scared its just a game" i closed my eyes trying to calm my self down. then his hands travelled to my shoulders which made me even more scared. i stood up and stormed out of the closet walking straight out without glancing at anyone. i know its rude but tears are threathening to come out of my eyes.

the last time i cried was when i heard that my parents died. i was near my car when a hand gripped me by my right arm, turned me around and pinned me on my car. his height was intimidating, his body, his eyes, his hair. everything. harry's face was inches from mine looking worried.

"what happened? what did justin do?" i can feel the guilt and worry in his voice laced with anger. i inhaled deeply trying to calm myself down. i dont know why i cried. maybe it was fear and maybe not.maybe something else that i cannot point out.

"what did he fucking do to you?" he shook me. what a stupid decision. i stayed quite because if i do make a sound my voice will just crack and my tears will fall like the fucking niagra falls. so harry waited for an answer and i think he felt annoyed or mad from not getting an answer from me.so he shook me one more time and still no words came out

"you know what? fine!! leave! just when someones actually cared for you" he let go of me and suddenly i felt weak, empty, alone. i watched him walk back into the house and i drove home. throat hurting from holding back my tears.

i drove home thinking about the reason i cried and then i realized it, that feeling when i heard the news about my parents. i cried because i felt safe and nice before the news came to me and then when i heard about it through the phone it hit me, i was alone, my parents left me. i was sad. i was afraid of being alone and being left. just like what harry did, he was there and then he left me, with justin in that fucking closet, but i have to suck it up again, that people always leave. i dont know how i made it inside because i felt so fucking tired and i didnt remember how i fell asleep.
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this is kinda short and im sorry. but i hope you liked it.
.btw, that guy is ashley purdy being sexy af, he be playin ash. the dude on the bar.

song: grow up by paramore