I love you forever more my love

Ive made my choice

-It was already two days after the incident. Sett or soraka haven't talked to me after that. They've been avoiding me all the time, even when we're at school. I think I made them upset by saying I was having mixed feelings about Soraka and I was gay. I don't think Sett will ever like me anymore. I feel like my heart had stopped every time I see, think, or pass him. I wanted to cry all over again. I didn't know what to do. I already said I was sorry for how I felt and played them. I didn't mean to I just didn't know how I actually felt. This is difficult for me to even understand. I don't know how I feel. All I know is I like guys more then girls. And I'm gay..but, Sett still wouldn't forgive me if I said I was sorry over and over again. He'd still hate me. So I decided to just leave him alone. At home my moms already knew what happened. They told me it's okay to be confused about your feelings and to just be open about them. Don't let anyone shut you down for how you feel because your feelings matter. Those were the most kindest words ever. I had it on repeat in my head every time I kept thinking about that night. I still cry about it though. I don't think I'll ever get over this, at least not mentally. Sett was the first person I ever liked so much I would go off the deep end for him but now I guess it doesn't matter. I didn't know how long the not talking to me would last but, it lasted till two weeks now. I've been more depressed and alone then ever now. When I got home from school my moms informed me that Sett and Soraka went to live with Sett's mother.-
       "Im sorry sweetie.." My mother says going to hug me. I ran away from the hug going outside running from my house as far as I can. I was crying as my heart needed too. I wanted to scream at the top of my lungs because of how hurt I was. I really thought I had someone. I found an alley way while I was on my walk stopping there and I went to go sit down by the wall. "God I'm such an asshole." I softly say wiping my tears away. I heard a noise coming more down in the alley way. I got up to go check it out. "Hello?" I say walking slowly towards the sound. "WHO'S THERE?!" Says a woman's voice. "I-I'm Aphelios and you are..?" I say stopping by a dumpster. She got up from behind the dumpster "I'm jinx!" She says smiling. Her smile was a little chaotic but I didn't mind it. "Jinx? Don't you have a sister name Vi who goes to Wildrift school?" I say looking at her. "I 'don't' have a sister!" She says rolling her eyes. "Now that's a lie." I say laughing a little. "She dates Caitlyn the sheriffs daughter." I also say walking to her. "Yeah your right.." she says looking sad. "What are you doing out her in an alley way?" I ask. "I could as you the same thing Aphelios." She says giggling but then sighing. "Im out here to clear my mind since I just got kicked out by my sister." She says looking over to the side holding her arms.

"I'm sorry to hear that." I say in a sad but understanding tone. "It's fine! I have a "friend name Ekko who doesn't live far from here anyways!" She says happily. "I can walk you there if you like?" I say trying to be generous. "Nah I'm good! I think I can protect myself ummm...Aphelios!" She says in a exciting but scary way. "Okay well it was nice seeing you jinx!" I say waving goodbye heading out from the alley. "Bye Aphelios!~" she says laughing walking the other way.
          -I guess that wasn't a bad of a walk. Making new friends is always good, that's what my mothers say at least. I headed home to only find out Sett and Soraka were standing outside my house. I didn't want to walk up to let them see me. I wanted to turn around and leave and go back to jinx and hang out with her more, but it was to late they noticed me.- 
           "Hey Aphelios...!" Sett says waving me to come over. I stood there for about 10 seconds before walking up to them. "H-Hey..." I say nervously. "Why so nervous Aphelios?" Soraka says reaching out from a hug. "I'm good thanks..." I say walking back 2 inches. "Hey walks walk man?" Sett says looking at me. "Y'all left! And then show up and act like nothing happened the past couple of weeks?!. That's messed up! Y'all should've told me something instead of ignoring me!" I was so angry I felt like I was about to have another meltdown. "W-We're so sorry Aphelios..." Soraka says wanting to hug me but pulls back. I stood there in silence. I didn't know what to do or say I was just angry with them. Cheating behind my back? I mean I guess we broke up the week I said I was gay and didn't like Soraka but still. It was never officially did that we were done. But now...We are so done. "I'm dumping you Sett..." I say mumbling a little. "W-what?!" He says in a sad shocking voice. "Aphelios think this through, maybe we had a reason to ignore you.." he says coming closer to me. "N-no! Don't come any further! I'm done with you and that's that...!" I say holding my tears back. "Aphelios please listen to me we were ignoring you because we wanted to surprise you that we bought our own house for all three of us..! Please know we weren't trying to be any way of mean or rude to you or even hurt your feelings...!" Sett says starting to cry a little.
-I couldn't say nothing i just walked of into the house. I was so pissed off at that they couldn't even talk to me while hiding that secret. They made me feel like I was nothing anymore. I cannot believe them. They stood there outside for about 5 seconds in pure shock and then finally left. Sett tried calling and texting me every day but I didn't answer nor look at his messages. I stayed home for two weeks instead of going to school. My moms called the school to tell them that my grandmother passed away. Which was true she did but it was 1 week ago after the incident. I lied to my moms and told them I was upset about her passing when really I just didn't want to see Soraka or Sett's face. I wanted to scream and cry into my pillow but that wouldn't help at all. I didn't know what to do. I starved myself for the past couple of days until my moms noticed what was going on.-
"Aphelios sweetheart this isn't about your grandmother isn't it....? She says sitting on my bed. "N-no..." I say looking down twiddling my fingers. "Please eat..your mom and I are worried sick about you." My mother says giving me a hug almost crying. "Mom I just...I'm so pissed off that Sett and Soraka had the nerve to come here and apologize for ignoring me about buying a house for us three." I say looking at her. My mother was so upset that she wanted to call Sett's mother and tell her this but, she didn't. "Listen if they come back they better give you a better and good ass apology." She says getting up going to my door. "I love you sweetheart goodnight." She says closing the door on here way out.
~In Aphelios mind~ "Im not wanting to talk to them until they give me a good ass apology and a good explanation why they had to ignore me instead of not talking to me. Because they seem to be dating now and if they are I'm not wanting to move it with them. Wait...Am I..Jealous....? No I couldn't possibly be jealous that Soraka and Sett are dating. Why would I even care if the hottest guy is dating someone. It's not my business. And I don't care because me and him are over. Point blank period OVER!" ~Out of Aphelios mind~
-The next week flew by and I was at school again. It was awkward seeing Sett and Soraka. They tried to talk to me but I'd always ignored them. They send notes or tap me on the shoulder or something to try to get my attention. It didn't work I still ignored them. That's until I was in the restroom. Sett came in and well.-
"Why the hell your ignoring us?" Sett says bursting into the bathroom. I didn't say anything just went into the stall. "Hey I'm talking to you!" Before I could shut the stall door Sett grab it and held it open. "Leave me alone!" I say angrily. He looked shocked a little but still continued to hold the stall door open. "I'm trying to apologize!" He says coming into the bathroom with me. "Well it better be a good one! Or I ain't expecting shit!" I say looking at him angry. "Listen we were ignoring you because Soraka is a blabber mouth and would tell you that we bought or was buying a house for us three. She didn't want to ruin the surprise until we actually got it. Which was why we came to your house that day TO TELL YOU that we got the house. And I'm so sorry for ignoring you. I still love you with every fiber in my heart. You mean the world to me and I never want that to change or let you go. Your mine and mine alone Aphelios. I'll always love you till death do us part." He says pinning me up against the stall wall looking at me blushing softly.

I had no words. "Should I kiss him?" I thought. "Or should I just push him away an run out" I also thought. Instead I went with my first option. But before I could lean in for a kiss Sett had already was pulling me into one.

"I-I missed you..." I say breathing heavily after the kiss. "Me too moon-pie me too..."
-We both walk out of the bathroom stall going into our classes. After 1 hour we were heading home and I was officially moving out and into the new house with Sett and Soraka.-