Hard knock life

Chapter one

"Jessica get up & get ready for school you got exactly 30 minutes or you will be walking", my mom said to me.
My mother wasn't one of those reasonable mothers who understood your feelings, she was one who was very sarcastic, & even if she didn't know it she would really hurt your feelings by some of things she said.
"Jessica get up I'm not going to tell you again". "I'm up dang", I said. "What was that?" My mom asked. "Nothing" I said before I closed my door all the way.
See I was afraid of my mom, but she should really be afraid of me. I literally have about five thoughts a day about killing her & if she could listen to the things I think about daily she would be very scared of me. My mom doesn't understand that I go threw a lot on a daily basis & emotionally I am messed up inside. I have tried to talk to my mom about countless things but like always she's always being negative about something.
"Jessica hurry up, it does not take you that long to do your hair & put clothes on. Who are you trying to impress!?" My mom said. "No one mom, I just thought I would look presentable for school you know?" I said. "Yeah okay" my mom said sarcastically.
On the way to school I decided to ask my mom if I could go over my friend Monique's house even though I knew she would say no I just decided to ask anyway. "I don't Jessica, I mean I don't even know her parents". "Please mom you can meet her parents!! She's the only person who I can really call my friend & I never get out the house as it is". "Okay Jessica maybe, I'm not promising though". My mom always said that. She knew if she promised me anything I would hold her against her word & she would have to let me. But I'll take what I can get at this point.
"Bye Jessica". "Bye mom". Ughh another day at this stupid school. I really hated school & I never tried at all. Langley junior High was the most high class school in all of Washington D.C. Langley junior High had nothing but females who were high class whores & males who thought they were high & mighty. Me on the other hand was a virgin & just came to school just to socialize. My Grades proved that. But hey I'm in middle school I loved to have fun.
"Jessica!" I turn around to see my best friend Monique walking towards me. "Hey Monique what's up?", "Nothing you talk to your mom yet?", "Yeah she said I could come over maybe". "Maybe?", "yeah". "What's maybe mean?". "Either I can come or I can't, you can never tell with my mom". Monique sighed & shook her head. "My mom usually tells me maybe & when the day comes she makes up some excuse to not let me". "Jessica I really want you to come over". " I want to, too , I would ask my dad but he would only tell me to ask my mom". Monique sat down at the table in front of us & started playing with her pencil. "We'll look on the bright side, my mom didn't say no". "You're right Jessica I'm getting upset for nothing". Just then the bell to tell us to go to our first hour class rang & since it was the last day of school we took our time to go.
"Goodmorning everyone".
"Goodmorning Mrs. Johnson" everyone mumbled under their breath. "As you all know it's the last day of school & next year you all would be off to high school. With that being said I brought you guys all some treats to let you know that I will truly miss all of you".
Everyone was shocked & confused because Mrs. Johnson acted like she hated us all. She usually yelled at everyone. But when it came to me I yelled back because she wasn't my parent to try & yell at me. "Mrs. Johnson do these cookies have poison in them"? A guy named Bobby Robertson asked while inspecting it. "Now Bobby why would you think I would give you guys some cookies that had poison in them"? "Because you hate us all". "Why would you say that?" "Because you were mean to us" a girl named Shania Crawley blurted out. "Just because I was mean to you guys doesn't mean I would harm you, I was mean so you guys could understand what the teachers are going to be like in high school next year" Mrs. Johnson said. "She's right" another kid sitting the the third row named Ronald Henry said as he finished his last bite of his cookie. "Her cookies are good it doesn't taste like she put anything bad in them". Everyone laughed at Ronald because he had frosting everywhere on his face. "See you guys I wouldn't harm you". "Well with that being said I'm eating my cookies" Bobby said.
With the rest of the thirty minutes we just sat there and ate our snacks & talked about everything. Mrs. Johnson wasn't bad after all.
When lunch came I just knew I was going to be sitting with Patrice & Evelyn, they were my friends, well sort of. I didn't tell them everything like I told Monique everything because they would just tell someone what I told them & twist up my words.
"Hey girl we was waiting for you" Evelyn said while I sat in front of them. "Oh I was in the bathroom washing my hands Mr.Moore had us do a fun science experiment that caused our hand to get dirty" I said. "Dang I'm too cute to get messy" Patrice said. Me & Evelyn just shook our heads & laughed. "Okay the fourth table may get up & get their lunch".
Our principal Mr. Thomas announced on the microphone letting everyone at our table know we could get up & get our lunch. "So what are you doing this weekend?" Patrice asked me. "I don't really know probably stay home like I always do".
I decided not to tell Patrice or Evelyn about me wanting to go over Monique's house because they hate Monique & me wanting to go over her house would have made things even worse. "Dang girl when are you ever going to get out of that house?" Evelyn asked. "I don't know, it's like I'm forced to stay in the house, I just like being at home".
I lied, I hated being at home I really wanted to be hanging with my friends sometimes but my mom always acted as if something bad was going to happen to me.
"Well..." Evelyn started. "If you want us to we can come to your house". "I'll have to see what my mom says". I didn't lie or tell them no, if my mom told me I could not go over Monique's then I could go see if Patrice & Evelyn could come over. "Okay just call us to let us know" Patrice said before sitting down with her tray in front of her.