The only friend I have is my inner demons

Tap Tap..Tap Tap..numerous tapping on the keyboard echoes throughout the room. The amount of taps I've heard in my lifetime couldn't compare to the amount of thoughts in my head. I say that with bit of grievance. Would kill for a reality where the amount of taps on this wretched board far outnumbered the noise in my mind. It would mean more peace of mind and being able to drift into an unnatural world called the internet.

Browsing the web leisurely, taking in all the junk made to condition humanity. Ah, another thought is making noise.

"You don't have any friends, only acquaintances. No one that truly cares for you as you do them."

You've told me this many times. Don't you ever get tired of repeating the same things over and over again?

"Those you cared most for always end up using you. The love you thought they had for was never real. Give it up, no one on this planet could possibly care for you. They never have nor will."

Alright, that enough out of you Leave me be with this useless crap of media.

"Let's be real, I'm your only friend. Have I ever left you? Always been there for you, no matter what's going on.Accompanying you throughout all your breakdowns.Making sure that you stay down.You don't deserve to be in this world.Do you not remember how you were treated in your school years? Even now as an adult, not much as changed."

Stop..

"Well, besides the fact that most people are too afraid to say what they think of you.Packed on all that muscle on you could be the reason of it. Tch a damn shame I couldn't stop you from bettering your health. Freak, stalker, weirdo, strange. Do you remember those words people called you!? What you were seen as!? ohohoho could go on all night reminding you of it all"

Stop..please

"You know what you'll be remembered as by everyone? The guy that was too gullible & kind for his own good. How easy it was to get what they wanted out of you."

You're right, I was foolish to open my heart to others For years I've resisted you, putting myself out there despite your words. Look at where it has gotten me..in a dark room full accompanied by an ill mind & the stabbing pain of a gorged heart! All this time, you were my friend in the midst of it all. Let's see where life takes me by letting go & embracing what you say. My inner demon, a loyal friend of mine.