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Appointment

It was Wednesday morning. I had my first  treatment today. I was going with just my mom cause I was only allowed one person. I could have went to school after because of would have only been 11:00 I had to go at 9 and it was  2 hours including the explaining and stuff, but my mom decided that I should this time  just to see how I felt after. I wanted to go to sleep on ft with Noah but I went to sleep early by accident thinking about today. I woke up to 3 missed calls and 15 texts. I got a hi, why, wanna ft, ameila?, are you okay, love are you okay?,are you mad at me? , are you sleeping love?, beautiful?. I even got a you might be sleeping but I hope your okay you can talk to me if something  wrong even if your mad at me tell me why your mad so I could work on being better for us. Then he continued to say good night ameila, you looked beautiful today as always. Then some from this morning including, good morning sunshine, can't wait to see you, hope everything's okay. I texted him back that I had fell asleep early and good morning and that I was sorry I ignored the can't wait to see you because he wouldn't see me and that would require an explanation that I wasn't ready for. I had on blue sweats and a white crop top and my comfy shoe slippers, they were Jorden 4 but slippers. We were on are way there and I was pretty nervous. I was scared of all the possibilities but tried to take my mind off them. We soon enough got there and the lady talked to us and set up eveything. I was sitting in the chair while I was doing the chemo. It wasn't to bad. My mom was in the other room. She could have sat in the chair with me but I was fine with her not.

It was 45 minutes into the chemo only 45 left. I was watching my comfort show Jane the virgin on Netflix. This was my 3 time rewatching it. Right in the middle of it I got a text from Noah. It said "I'm glad to know you wasn't ignoring but where are? I went to your class and you wasn't there maybe you was just in the bathroom the time I walked by." I didn't answer I didn't know what to say. So I didn't say anything I just shut the text off and went toy show. I didn't want to ignore him but it was to early to tell him eveything.

We was on our drive back home. They doctor said to be pay attention to my symptoms to see how the chemo would affect me. I was started to feel a little sick. Not like sick sick like tired sick. Like I just had a  full day of work and was drained. Luckily we was home fast enough and I went to my room I told my mom I was going to take a nap. She said she would be up to Check on me . I fell a sleep faster then ever. It felt like I was asleep forever. Like I was really into the sleep. I guess I was sleeping for a long time cause when I woke up it was 3. I was sleeping for 4 hours. I never took naps that long. My mom has put some water next to my bed that I got up and drank. But when I say up I feel super dizzy. Like I was going to throw up dizzy. And I guess that was a warning because nect thing I knew I was in my bathroom on the floor next to my toilet throwing up. My mom had hers me and came to hold my hair back. She helped me get my self together. I was pretty stunned, I haven't thrown up since I was a baby. My mom helped me back to my bed. She got me a new glass of water and a rag for my head cause I guess she felt I was a little hot. I was drifting off back to sleep. I had a feeling this was going to be a long might. "I love you my baby" my mom said soft. "I love you mom" I answered back with my eyes closed.

I woke up to arms around me. I asummed it was my mom since I feel a sleep with her nect to me, so I snuggled up closer to her trying to but my head on her stomach. I was moving my head around slowly trying to find her stomach until I felt hard abs under my head. I opened my eyes wide and got up qiuck. And I mean all the was off my bed like I completely jumped up. "Noah!" I said yelling. What was he doing here. How. Why. "Hi ameila" "why are you here!" I said angry. How did he get up in my room. Did he talk to my mom . Did she tell him somthing. "I was worried about you it seemed like you were ignoring me so I came to check on you " "how did you get in my room. How did you get in mt house!" I said wanting answers "I used the front door your mom let me in" I crossed me arms and started walking side to side "uh she did like tell you anything did she?" I asked nervously he lauging slightly "relax ameila she didn't spill you deepest secrets to me" he said opening his arms for me to come back but I didn't. He continued " she only  said to me was that you didnt feel good, I told her I was a worried and wanted to come check on you, she told me you was up here so I came up and laid next to you and while you were sleeping put your arms around  me ." I took a second to think then I sighed in relive. I went to lay back on my bed I pushed Noah to lay back down instead of sitting up and laid back on his check "okay good I just got a little scared that's all" I said wrapping my arms around him and he wrapped his arms around me. I still didn't feel good so I didn't care. I was usually really emotional when I was sick. I rubed my head on his chest. "Amelia?" Noah said

"shut up" I told him without moving at all

. "Do you need anything?" He asked ignoring me

"no Noah" I said annoyed.

"Are you going to go back to sleep?"

"Yes Noah" I said that same way

"Okay love" he said soft and started rubbing my back. I love my back being rubed. Ever since I was a baby my grandma would rub my back and I just growled to love it. I didn't say anything after that I just drifted off.  Once again I feel asleep.