If Only You Knew

Chapter 6 (His Feelings)

When I got to class I noticed that Ethan and Chloe were already there sitting at their seats. Who knew she was also in this class too? Ethan saw me and waved me over. As I walked over I saw that under the table Ethan was trying to hold her hand. My chest was immediately filled with pain, it hurt knowing that he was already so deep in his feelings for her. After walking up to them I sat across from them. Class felt inevitable that day. When the bell finally rang I quickly said goodbye to Ethan and Chloe and ran to go find Carla. I found her at our usual spot. When she saw me she waved and said " Hey Lily, how's it going?" Honestly I felt as if my heart had just been broken into a million pieces. I told her "Hi Carla, right now I'm not feeling to great." She looked at me with a worried face and I ended up telling her about everything. I explained the wanting to get to know him better, falling for him, realizing I loved him, and watching him with the girl of us dreams which wasn't me. After explaining everything to her she said to me  "Oh Lily why didn't you tell me sooner." I said to her "I didn't think I'd get so deep into it." We sat there for a while until Timothy, Marcus, and Hayley came over. Once they were near us Timothy told us that Ethan and Chloe were coming over soon. I sighed and faced my head down Carla noticed it and said to me " Why don't we go get a snack from the cafeteria?" I looked up and said to her " It's okay, I'm fine we can stay here." Deep down I knew I had to get used to Ethan and Chloe hanging out together. As Ethan and Chloe came over they were close up to each other. They sat down near me and Carla. We all talked to everyone until it was time to leave. I said goodbye to everyone and as I was about to leave Ethan ran up to me. He said " Hey can we walk together for a while? I need to talk to you about something." I looked at him and said " Sure." As we walked together I realized how nice it was to walk with him alone. Just me and him with no one else around. For a second it felt like we were a couple. But I knew that wasn't the case for us. As we continued waking Ethan said to me " What do you think of Chloe?" I couldn't believe this. Why was he asking me this? I looked over at him and saw that he was serious about the question. I told him " Yea she's okay I barely know her though. Why do you ask? " He told me that he just wanted to know what I thought of her since me and him were friends. I asked him a question that I probably shouldn't have asked. I said to him " What do you like about her Ethan?" He looked at me and smiled and said "I like the way she me makes me feel."  My heart ached yet I still asked him this last question " How does she make you feel?" He said " She makes me feel happy, her smile melts my heart, when I talk with her it's nice, and I find myself wanting to know everything about her." His answer crushed me. I never should have asked why he liked her. I suddenly started to feel water on my face. Looking up I saw that it wasn't raining. I felt my face and realized that it was tears. Tears had started to stream down my face. Ethan looked over to me with concern on his face. He asked " What's wrong Lily? Are you okay? " I wiped my face of but the tears kept coming. I told him that I was fine. He kept insisting that I wasn't. Eventually I found myself telling him that I'd walk the rest of the way myself. He saw the state I was in so he let me go. On the rest of my walk home I cried and thought to myself "Why did I have to fall for Ethan?"