𝐓𝐡𝐞 𝐁𝐨𝐬𝐬𝐲 𝐒𝐞𝐜𝐫𝐞𝐭𝐚𝐫𝐲 || 𝐉.𝐉𝐊

13• 𝗛𝗮𝘁𝗿𝗲𝗱 𝗳𝗼𝗿 𝗦𝗲𝗹𝗳

As you created the mess in the cabin, the model of the building scattered to pieces littering the floor, it awoke the storm inside you, penetrating the injured lioness. You didn't want to stay away from Robert only because of him, but because of the memories the guy brought alongside him. You'd known him from when you were 3 and never did you expect him to turn into someone who you'd hate the most.

Y/N POV

I was sitting on the chair taking deep breaths, massaging my head when someone came in, I didn't care to look up but the voice alerted me.

"Y/n, what the hell is this!?" Uncle Ryan said as he witnessed the condition of my cabin in a horror stuck expression.

"It's nothing uncle." I gave the blunt reply.

"Oh my god Y/n, your hand is bleeding!" Uncle almost screamed while I looked at the half flowing, half clotted blood on my right palm with a blank expression.

"It's a little injury, will heal soon." You replied bluntly yet again.

"Y/n, this isn't how things work. If you won't take care of yourself, you'll end up being bedridden for God knows how long!" Uncle scolded me but not like I was paying much attention.

I don't care if I get bedridden, sick, or even die. It's not that I have much of special things to do, not that I have many expectations from life. I believe it's a nightmare and the sooner it ends the better. I know there are people who love me and they'll grieve over me if I die but they'll eventually move on.

I was thinking that and then it hit me hard like a racing car : I am turning suicidal and it isn't a good thing.

There shifted my attention to Jungkook walking in the room while Uncle scolded me to which I wasn't listening for the most part of it.

"Ms. Kim, I came to inform you that you have to attend a meeting with the shareholder of (xyz) at 6:00 in the evening. And we'll have to leave by 5:00 because the journey would take around third of an hour." Jungkook spoke as I paid attention, okay everything aside, work first.

"Okay, it's 4:00 right now, we'll leave at 5:00." I nodded at him.

"Okay Ms. Kim." Jungkook bowed before leaving.

"Now if you're done with all this I must inform you that with the carelessness you have for your health, I don't even wish what I see for your future." Uncle said in a defeated tone. It wasn't the first time he'd lectured me about this topic but I always shrugged it. As much as I could wish to, I'd never have the urge to take care of myself.
I sort of hated myself. Sort of.

"I'll try." I gave another blunt and blank response while Uncle just looked at me with those pitiful eyes. I hate pity. I don't want someone to feel bad for me when I don't about myself.

They say "When life gives you lemons, make lemonade." But here I don't even get lemons, I get thorns and only thorns.

Even the beautiful flowers in my life come with thorns and now I am used to it.

Y/n POV ends.

You attended the meeting but there wasn't much to discuss with Jungkook in the car, for the first time you felt an awkward tension in the air around him, maybe it was because he saw you in a vulnerable state in the morning or maybe because he seemed shy to talk.
Either way, it didn't feel normal.

He decided to break the ice as he said,

"Y/n, I know you don't want me to indulge in your life but I am pretty worried about you. The way you behaved or even are behaving isn't really you. From what I've seen you're a strict person, but a rebel. A serious but a sarcastic soul. Sassy, savage, funny, even light-hearted but there are times when you're so grave and so reserved, it feels upsetting."

"You being honest is what I appreciate the most here. And I don't want you to worry about me, I don't worry about myself either. Just let it go the way it is. I kinda don't have a grasp over myself." You responded with the super serious and grave tone.

"When I first saw you, I thought about how perfect you are, in every way. Beautiful, gorgeous, classy, elegant, graceful, smart, brainy woman and don't mind but hot." He laughed as he said that and you laughed too.
"I thought you have a perfect life, rich, famous, beautiful, everything a girl could ask for but now I see being close to you about how you must feel of all the pressure and all the attention you get."
He continued.

"You're not as dumb as you seem." You gave a light chuckle.

"And you're not as serious as you seem." He smiled beautifully as he spoke.

And then for the very first time you noticed that this guy was indeed very handsome and a brilliant person on the inside.

He is a sort of perfect man, but then again, you never know what goes on inside the lives of the seemingly perfect people.

You reached home quite early that day because there wasn't much work and you were in no mood to stay longer at work. You wanted to plop on your bed and lay down for as long as you wished.

When you were leaving Jungkook approached you to ask why you'd be in such a messy mood but you weren't realising that you were being rude to someone who cared for you. And later you'd regret it.

Nonetheless, talking to this friend of yours did lighten your mood a bit and you felt better about yourself?

Maybe or maybe not, you weren't aware of yourself completely and that was the biggest and the worst drawback of your personality.

You hated many things about yourself
But for the most......

You hated yourself.

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