S I LVER
Aiden and I are at the back of Papa's car, sitting side by side.
The moment Derek drives away from the Meet Up, my
breathing turns faster and harsher, as if I've been running.
As if I'm climbing a mountain and have no way to get down. Then I'm
falling and there's no landing in sight. It's a fatal fall, the type that crushes
your skull and destroys your body.
I stare out the window and focus on the empty road to not think about
what I've just learnt.
The distraction doesn't help. The inhaling and exhaling don't help
either.
There's a weight on my chest that won't go the hell away. It's
suffocating me the more I gulp air into my lungs.
All I want to do is scream until my voice turns hoarse and I can't
scream anymore.
I retrieve my phone and pretend I'm scrolling through my vain chat
room with Veronica and Summer. It's all about gossip and the latest makeup
and fashion trends. The stupidity itself should somehow cool my head.
It doesn't.
The only image going on in my mind on a freaking loop is Cole having
sex with our head nurse. He was having sex with her.
As in they were naked and he kissed her.
Tears fight to spill free, but I turn away from Aiden and widen my eyes
so they stay there. I won't cry. I'm not going to cry because of that arsehole.
So what if he has sex? I don't care. Why should I care?
Cole can go to hell for all I care.
I hate him. The one good thing about him is that he's Helen's son.
That's it.
That's all.
Since that day he kissed me, I knew Cole wasn't for me. I just knew it.
The moment he compared me to others, blatantly declaring I was only one
of his conquests, I decided I would be the conquest he'd never win.
He might make me lose at studies and piano and sports, but he'll never
make me lose at this game.
And I meant what I said. I'll make him regret it.
My firsts?
Screw him. He lost the right to those the moment he didn't save his
firsts for me.
Cole might act like I'm a fly in his vicinity, but he gets unnecessarily
aggressive when he knows Aiden and I have spent time together behind his
back. We only do it because Papa and Uncle Jonathan are close friends and
we're often invited as a set.
And by unnecessarily aggressive, I mean he'll accept Aiden's
challenges, even when he usually doesn't. He makes sure to win every time
