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Kiss and Makeup

A/N: The above pic is what he is wearing through this chapter.

Diary entry 14

January 31st 2022

Y/N pov: 

After the dance, I didn't leave my house the next day or pick up my calls from Lisa.

 I broke the furniture and things around the house by throwing them in anger. I was so fucking sad and mad and I felt a whirlpool of different emotions. I felt kind of betrayed and disappointed. My heart ached, longing for the person I'm supposed to hate.

Y/N: I fucking hate you, Jungkook

I screamed as tears poured down my eyes in anger. As I punched the wall in anger and screamed

Y/N: why, did you have to be one of them Jeon ............ I hate you so much

I fell on the ground crying as I leaned my head against the wall.

Y/N: I hate the fact I still love you, even more

That night was horrible, the apartment was a wreak and everything was scattered , broken but I didn't care, I felt so weak and vulnerable.  I hate feeling so weak , I knew there was something about him from the beginning but I was so stupid in love to not realize how much of a dumbass I've been. Falling for all his lies , it felt worse than my break up with Eric ( her ex mentioned in the 1st chapter). Then, a notification came on my phone interrupting my pity session. 

When I saw " my bunny" had sent a message , I threw my phone on the wall , I was sick of this shit and my fucking heart. 

Soon, I fell asleep on the floor but was awoken by the sound of knocking coming from the front door. I didn't feel like doing anything , the knocking continued but I just ignored it and wallowed on the floor. Until I heard a familiar voice

Jungkook: Y/N , it's me Jung woo please open the door. I know you don't want to talk to me but please just hear me out.

He pleaded.

The audacity of this asshole to come over to my fucking apartment to hear him out. I wanted to give him a piece of my fucking mind. I got up and went over to the door and stood in front of it harshly told him.( she didn't open it , ok)

Y/N: get the fuck out of here Jungkook

The knocking stopped.

Y/N: I don't w-want to hear anything y-you have to say, so just q-quit wasting my time and l-leave m-me a-alone Jungkook. 

Jungkook: Y/N, how did you-

Y/N: Didn't think I would find out about this, huh. How fucking blind do you think I am Jungkook. From the fucking moment I saw you, there was so many red flags surrounding you. I knew you were anything but normal but I put it all aside all the warning I got, every single fucking shit you tried to hide and didn't question it any further, do you know why.

Y/N: cause I don't think I'm in love with you, I know I love you. I fell hard and you couldn't even tell me the truth, that's what hurt the most. 

Jungkook: Y/N , don't you think that I would feel horrible for every lie I told you . So many times I wanted to tell you the truth but if I did what would you have done. 

He spoke in a gentle voice.

I fell quiet , I didn't know what to say. If he had told me this beforehand like at the mall, I would have done something drastic but now I don't know what I would do. I didn't want to scream at him so harshly , it didn't seem like he gave any other option either.