Unrequited Love

CHAPTER 5 (short)

On second thought, I can't confess.

"Tell me honestly, Ei. I know you whenever you lie," Miko said as she followed me again walking down the street. I'm trying to go home as fast as I can.

"I told you, you're my best friend. What answer do you want?" I replied and walked quickly.

She held my hand and pulled me to her, and my arms were on her chest.

I-it's big

The fuck you're thinking about? You're in a crucial situation for fucks sake and you're thinking about her boobs?!

"You're clearly lying!"

"I'm not," I said as I pushed her away. Stop forcing me to say something. What do you want me to say? That I like you? When I don't and just like you as my best friend," I explained, turning away from her.

I can't just confess and risk my friendship with her. I don't even know what she meant by she's feeling something...weird. Maybe she's being disgusted by me.

"I just... want you to be honest," she mumbled.

"But I am honest, Miko. I don't know what answer you want, but this is my answer. There is nothing more to it," I sighed. "You're really acting weird right now. If I said that I liked you romantically, what would you even do? You like Ayato, don't you?"

This might be my chance to know how she would feel or react when I confessed to her. I... took advantage of this but... I lied to her.

"I..."

"See, you won't do nothing," I sighed. 

"Let me finish for fucks sake," she grumbled. "I would've thought about it more, these last few days with Ayato. Let's say yes, it's been fun with him, but sometimes I just feel like... me liking him is just a fake, it's like... I only like him as a friend platonically,"

W-what?

"It's making me so confused. I feel happy with him, but it's just not the same as you," she said. "Every time I'm with him, his every action reminds me of you. Whenever we eat, he always gets excited about the sweets like you," she mumbled.

Is...is this what I think of?

I chuckled. "You're just thinking that, you just miss hanging out with me, your best friend."

"I-it's not that, Ei! Why do you keep pointing it out to this friend thing? I'm confused if I like you! I'm confused. What if my liking for Ayato is fake and the one I really like is you? " She said as she looked at me. Her eyes are serious and my heart is just beating so fast. If she gets closer, she will hear it! What nonsense is Miko talking about?

There is no way that Miko likes me. She's straight as hell.

"Miko, you're completely talking nonsense right now. Yes, you're just confused, and you know what the answer is? You LIKE Ayato, not me," I pointed out.

"I don't get jealous when another girl flirts with Ayato, but I do get jealous when another girl approaches you when we're outside," she explained. "I always get annoyed and want to tell them you're just mine, but I always keep getting confused. Why am I this way with you but not with Ayato?"

Fuck this, I'm going to risk everything for her.

I walked closer to her. "What do you feel?"

"N-nervous," she said as I moved closer to her, and our bodies could almost touch each other.

"How about now?"

"M-more nervous, and...excited,"

I moved my face closer to her face. I could feel her breath. "Now?"

"I...want to kiss you,"

Wait, what? This was not what I planned! I backed away and I could feel my face getting red and hot! Fuck, why does she have to say that?

"I....fuck I'm so sorry, Ei! I don't know why I just blurted that out, it's just...you were so close to me and that just slipped out," she said as her face was redder than mine.

What am I supposed to say and do in this situation? This is so awkward, damn it.

"I...it's fine,"

I said as I looked away from her, but she approached me and tilted my chin up and she looked at me with those soft amethyst eyes. It's so beautiful that it even shines even when it's night time. I could just stare at her eyes all day.

"What about you? What do you feel right now?"

"N-nervous," I said, and she hugged me from my waist and pulled me closer to her so our bodies touched. I feel so nervous and hot. This is so not okay. I can feel my heart beating all the way out of my body! I'm afraid she can hear my heartbeat so loudly.

"What about now?"

"M-more nervous, and... I want to stay.. a little bit more like this," I said as I looked away from her.

And we did stay like this. My feet didn't even hurt anymore. I was just resting in her arms, and slowly feeling and hearing her heartbeat. Even her heartbeat sounded so majestic and beautiful. Time seemed to slow down just for us.

Wait, what are we right now?