Ten thousand Hours

Jungkook doesn't understand how someone could be so sweet yet so bold at the same time, carry themself with so much grace all the while hiding their demons inside. So small, yet emotionally so big. So soft, yet mentally so strong.

Park Jimin is a man of contradictions. Someone that God created solely for people to lose their minds and hearts over.

With his strong cut jaw that seems like it is made out of steel and his unrealistically high cheekbones that yeets you into a higher space of masculinity. Masculinity that is heavily opposed by his Bratz Doll lips and soft puppy eyes that look at you with so much innocence, you lose your mind. And the soft childishness that resides in the playful scrunches of his small button nose. Park Jimin is a dilemma. Packed with all the things beautiful in the world, perfection like no other. So much that he almost seems unreal. Alien. Ethereal.

And there hasn't been a day when Jungkook wasn't devastated by his beauty, hasn't been a day when he didn't feel like his heart would burst from the love it carried for that small human being with a heart too big to fit in his chest. There hasn't been a day, he didn't want to possess him. Hide him somewhere where no one could touch him, corrupt him. There hasn't been a day when he wasn't jealous of the fingers that got to touch his beautiful skin.

Hasn't been a day, he wasn't hungry for Park Jimin.

And he knows his obsession with the boy would lead to his destruction. To losing his sanity. But he also knows that he can't stop, he can never get enough. No matter how many times he holds Jimin, hugs him, kisses him, fucks him. It's never enough. He's still an addict with no cure once the contact fades 'cause he's starving for Jimin again.

He thinks it is because Jimin isn't his. They are just friends that fuck each other when they need it to Jimin. Their busy lives as idols barely gives them enough time to rest, dating is clearly out of the context. So of course, the boys has to find some other ways to fulfill their sexual needs. And often times, they turn to each other.

Namjoon and Jin are almost married now, although they don't want to label themselves as anything, the connection between the two runs so deep that even the fans have started noticing their bond. Hoseok and Yoongi have already announced themselves as a couple to the boys two years back and now Tae always cancels his game sessions with Jungkook and keeps disappearing into Sope's room every night. He think they might be taking Tae in and which is great 'cause his best friend has always been enamored by Yoongi's gummy smiles and Hoseok's beautiful personality. He knows they fit well and he's happy for them.

But that still doesn't resolve his issue with Jimin. Every night, he brands himself into Jimin, leaves so many marks on him, he loses count. Fucks him so hard, he limps to the car  the next morning. Holds him so tight to his chest, kisses him so hard that he can't breathe. But every morning he wakes up to an empty bed, a smiling Jimin in the kitchen that never looks at him the way he did last night. They don't talk about it, never did and just go about their lives like nothing happened. And maybe, nothing happened for Jimin. Maybe he doesn't want Jungkook the way Jungkook wants him. And Jungkook is scared.

He clenches his fist as he watches Tae tickle Jimin to tears. The taller boy is on top of Jimin on the mustard couch in their dorm's living room. Jimin's high pitched squeaks echo around the space gleefully, warming the room in happiness. But Jungkook is cold. He can never be happy until Jimin is his.

Walking swiftly towards the pair, he pulls Tae off Jimin when he starts choking on his giggles. The older boy shouts in protest but he doesn't pay him any mind, he helps Jimin sit up wordlessly, rubbing his back to help him catch his breathe and wiping the happy tears off his flushed face.

"Jungkookie! He took off the switch to the TV when I was playing! Let's punish him together," Tae suggests from the floor before diving back on top of Jimin, tickling him again. Jungkook tries to keep his emotions under control because Tae is family and Tae doesn't want Jimin like that. But no matter how hard he tries, the green monster of jealousy still stirs.