Kokoro

Years and years had passed and I still didn't understand what feelings were. Papa kept telling me what feelings are but I still didn't understand.

"The Kokoro(heart) still hasn't gone through you yet." Papa said while coughing. He was getting older. While I was designed to stay this age "Do you have any memories of my actual daughter?" He asked me one day and I just shook my head.

It's been years and the first memory I have is waking up in a weird lab. When I said that, he just sighed, shook his head and sat down, with tears coming out of his eyes... I still didn't understand at all. And now that I'm thinking about it, it gives tears to my eyes.

More years past by, papa kept getting older and older until one day, he just collapsed. He never opened his eyes or took another breath again. I didn't feel anything at all.

About a year passed, I was being left alone the whole year. In the same lab, in the same corner. Papa spent the rest of his life trying to get something called a Kokoro in me. And apparently it failed and now he is gone. I didn't feel any feelings about it.

I would just sit there trying to understand why someone would be sad. I would sing a little song to make time passed by. A song papa had taught me. Then one day, a year later while I was singing, the computer he tried to program the Kokoro in, started making a noise. All these memories started rushing in my head. My 'heart' started to feel like it was being torn apart.

So this was sadness... I looked at the computer, it said "100% complete" on it. "Why?!" I started shouting with tears coming out of my eyes. "Why did it take you so long?!" I added in shouting at the computer. I felt feelings now, I felt the tears on my cheek. And they were real.

"Papa!" I screamed out loud while bawling. "I'm sorry!" It was too late to go back. I couldn't go back to when papa was alive. It was too late. I was too late. I collapsed to the ground still crying. I remembered everything from his daughter's memories too.

Then I remembered something he said:
"The first miracle was that you were born
The second miracle was the time spent with you
The third miracle was the "sincere heart" from the future you
The fourth does not exist there is no need for a fourth"

When I remembered that, I stopped crying tears of sadness and instead I tried to be happier. I wiped my tears away and said out loud, "Thank you... I'll keep singing for you... I'll keep singing I promise"

Tears still fell down my cheek but they weren't tears of sadness, it was joyness. Now I'll live my life like I should, even as a robot, I will live my life as a human. It's what papa would have wanted. So I will do what he would have wanted and I will live my life.

"Thank you..." I said as I smiled at a picture of papa with tears down my cheeks.