Run to You

Chapter 6

My eyes widen at the mention of my whole name cause there's only one who calls me like that... him

I can feel his presence behind me and his familiar smell is all too far up my soul now, I hesitantly turn around still feeling extremely tipsy that my eyelids are drooling.

He changed, he's wearing pants with a black shirt tucked in and his coat is hanging in his hand, the moonlight reflects on his skin and his hair is flowing with the wind god

"Hi..." I say soundly my cheeks flushing with red though I'm not blushing, he doesn't seem to hear my response as his eyes travel up my newly colored hair.

He comes forward but I don't move from my spot I don't want to

With just a foot distance between us, he notices my faint shivering, not even asking he puts his blazer on me and I gladly accept it because I'm cold. It smells too much like him and snuggles onto it.

He takes another step forward just to reach his hand up, he takes the blonde-colored curtain bangs and leaves the black part away it's not a huge transformation yes i know

"Your hair..." he finally speaks and I notice that we haven't said much at all...

I grin stupidly and a nod must be the alcohol.

He lets out a chuckle and it melts my heart... none of us have mentioned what happened before and I'm grateful cause of that.

He looks away for a moment and my drunk instincts come alive as I move forward to put my hands around his waist and squish my cheeks along his chest...

His body tenses but then relaxes again after my grip tightens and I smile beneath the dark... I suppress a burst of whole laughter as he wraps his arms around my shoulders and puts his chin on my head.

We stay like that for some time and I pull away just to see a pair of amused eyes, I flash him a smile.

"Are you drunk Jennifer?" he says with a confused expression, "I'm drunk enough to do this with you but not drunk enough to forget this tomorrow" I say in one breath just to see him satisfied...?

I take his hand and start walking down the bridge, I think he probably stops at places just to take some pictures of me and I smile unknowingly...

I stop in the middle of walking as he almost stumbles,

I look at him with a weird expression but that doesn't last long as I tiptoe and place a soft and quick kiss on his lips- he's almost shocked at such an evolution.

Humiliation burns me as I try not to giggle but run away, he's too fast cause he catches my hand and makes me turn to him

"I thought we were done with the kissing," he says with a smirk and I really want to slap him for doing this to me, "we were? I forgot...sorry"- I say as quickly as possible just to get out of here

"I don't think we are hon"- he says in the deepest voice ever before leaning into a hard kiss, I gasp and he uses that to his advantage.

We're literally onto each other and before he can take it further- I remember that he has a girlfriend...

Pain and guilt wash over me like a wave as I put my hands on his chest to tell him to stop, he doesn't get it first but I pull away, "stop..."-I say in the quietest way possible

I don't even notice the tears threatening to fall out of my eyes but he does and grows worried in an instant, "what's wrong? Did I hurt you? I'm sorry but please don't cry..." he pleads

I fall back and he doesn't come toward me, "you have a girlfriend, we can't do this"- my voice breaks a thousand times as I say those words.

All part of me wishes for him to say something, anything that'll make me change my mind, but he doesn't and instead lowers his eyes.

My tears fall. "I'm sorry"- I say and turn around still wearing that blazer.

By the time I reach my apartment, my eyes are swollen from crying too much, my body is freezing from the cold and my legs are throbbing from walking all the way up here.

I keep the blazer on the sofa and run to the mirror to check my hair, It's nice

I stay in front of the mirror for some time until I decide to go get freshen up but all thoughts are interrupted by a knock on my door...

"It's almost three am, who's here to see me?"- I mentally ask myself as I hesitantly go near the door,

"It's me Jennifer"- Jungkook says from behind the door and both relief and nervousness wash through me

I open the door just to be greeted by a panting Gguk.

"Me and Camille? We don't trust me. It's just you baby, just you" he says all too quickly.

It takes me time to even process what he just said but he doesn't wait he can't wait as he kisses me and this time there's no way I'm pushing him away.

We make it near the bed and I stop him, "I won't be a girl you just fuck"- I say with a high chunk of fear in my voice,

He almost feels taken aback by my statement but then leaves out a dark chuckle, "Trust me, darling, you aren't just a girl I'll fuck, I think you'll see" he says with a wicked smile.

I smile and wrap my feet around his waist as he pulls us down in the bed.

Him and I. Just us... for one dreamy night when we're both aware of the consequences held but still enjoy the night for however long it lasts.

staring at his earl descent face I wonder what sins I have done in my past life to have to feel this agonizing pain. 

This beautiful human being will never love me and frankly I will never let him, I don't deserve him and he has a life. He deserves a life with someone who can be completely in love with him, someone who'll accept him for who he is, someone who'll always stay with him.

He doesn't need a girl who'll leave.  And I always leave.