I saw you on my dreams yesterday
You looked so happy like on day we first met
For instances I thought I wasn't dreaming, it was way too good being on your side
You see a lot of insecurities in yourself, and I see nothing but perfection
Your voice is stuck in my head like a love song
I still can feel your touch, my body always reminds me the softness of your hands
I am losing control of my feelings, I can't fight them anymore, that is why I am here writing all of these things to you
I don't know how much it will cost to give you a hug right now, but I'm willing to pay the price no matter how high the price is
All these mistakes I made, they feel like fractures in my bones
It is really hard to say sorry when you already screwed up everything
But I guess this is how you learn
There is nothing I can do now unless destroying myself for you
I don't know if you still have feelings for me, are we still in love?
If I knock your door will you open?
If I call you will you answer?
If I say I love you, will you say it back?
So many questions without answers but don't worry
At least I hope we will meet in the afterlife, I'll be on the other side waiting for you, for hours, days, weeks, centuries, millenniums
I am on my way to end all this suffering that it's killing me softly.
Joelson
