Summer, 2016.
Cleaning away the disgusting substance that escaped her mouth she thought about the possibilities of her actually being pregnant. Hanna stared at her reflection in the bathroom mirror. My period is late... I have thrown up about five times this week... I ate like a pig today, Caleb for sure noticed. Thoughts and thoughts filled her mind only to be interrupted by Caleb's voice.
"Babe!" He called for her as he entered their small bathroom. "Have you seen my razor? I think I left it in here somewhere. What the hell is going on?" Caleb said acknowledging the situation as Hanna remembered she didn't flushed the toilet after throwing up. "I promise. It's not what it looks like." Hanna said without looking at him. She already knew what he thought.
"Baby, please. Don't do this to yourself." He softly spoke as he walked up to her and pushed back a lose lock of her short blonde hair. "Don't do this to me."
"Caleb its not what it looks like." Hanna said as she flushed the toilet. "I feel a little bit sick. Its nothing."
Caleb knew Hanna was lying to him about something, but he just didn't knew exactly what it was about. So he just stayed with his original idea. He knew she has done it before. "Han, that comment I made earlier at breakfast about you eating for two was just a joke. I swear I would take it back if I could. I am sorry." Caleb said, regret evident in his tone. Hanna has a dark history with extra weight. As her old nickname, 'Hefty Hanna' revealed. Her temporary state of Bulimia helped her loose all the extra weight, giving her the sculptural figure she now owns.
"Don't worry about it, its alright." Hanna said as she tried to pull out a smile. She actually really meant it, because she wasn't affected by the comment that escaped her boyfriends mouth, but by the possibilities of having a child.
"It is not alright. Hanna, you are so beautiful, so stunning there should be a new world to describe you. Its not fair the fact that you don't feel that way because of something I said."
"Caleb, please. I didn't forced myself. I promise." Hanna said. Caleb could see she was telling the truth so he decided to drop it for a while. "So you are feeling sick? Then you are not going anywhere." He said carefully escorting her to their bedroom.
"No, I'm fine. I'll stop at the pharmacy on my way to Spencer's."
"Okay, then I'm driving you."
"Caleb, really you don't have to do that. Please, I have you on speed dial."
He wasn't entirely convinced, but he let her go anyway. "Be careful." He said as he planted a soft kiss in her lips.
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Hanna walked out of the pharmacy with a pregnancy test on her hands and drove home. It was around 2:00 p.m on a Saturday. That meant Caleb was with Toby. Hanna walked home into her bathroom and stared at the little piece of plastic that will determine her entire future. She waited, and waited. And right after the two pink lines appeared, two tears fell down her cheek. Hanna had a fetus inside her.
Thoughts filled her mind once again. How could such a broken, unstable person like herself could support a little child? How could she do that to it? How would someone like Caleb will react like this? Caleb never had a father. How will he be one? Hanna bet he would leave. Just like her father did. Run away from responsibilities.
Two hours had passed. Hanna was still crying silent tears in the bathroom when Caleb got home. He noticed how Hanna's car was outside so he figured she would be home.
"Han?" Caleb called from the bottom of the stairs.
"Yes?" Hanna's voice cracked and Caleb grew on concern. "You okay?" He asked as he jogged up stairs only to find Hanna washing her face in the sink. "Yes." Hanna lied. Her eyes where red, puffy and swollen from all the crying.
"Hanna, you already know how useless it is to lie to each other."
"I... need to talk to you." Hanna managed to say as she took him to their bedroom.
Bloody hell, she's breaking up with me. Caleb thought.
Hanna closed her eyes, took a deep breath, and said "Caleb, I am pregnant." Tears rolling down her cheeks. One by one.
Caleb stood there. Like a lifeless body occupying space. His mind went overboard with all kind of thoughts. The main one being: What the hell does a father do? He was speechless.
"Please say something." Hanna said now crying louder.
"I... I need a minute." Caleb said and walked out the door. Hanna sat there and cried, just cried.
Author's note:
"If love is an ocean wide, we'll swim in the tears we cry."
~The Afters.
