Ethereal-Draco Malfoy

Chapter 4

tw: eating disorder, self-harm (will be marked with * )

Staring at her reflection in the mirror she could understand why nobody loved her.

James and Lily had forced her along with Charles to visit Lily's parents as James's were dead, for once they had payed attention to her and actually spoke more than a few words to her. She had felt giddy when putting on her dress, she couldn't wait to meet her grandparents; they hadn't visited in years and their faces were now distant blurs in the back of her head. She knew that if she tried hard enough she would be able to remember every single detail about them but chose to focus on other things. 

She should've known that things don't usually, as soon as she arrived downstairs to meet her parents and brother she noticed they were all wearing matching outfits. Usually she'd think it was strange but for some reason all she could feel was her stomach twisting. They all wore something red, Lily wore a red skirt with a tan shirt while James wore some tan pants with a red sweater. Charles however wore a full red outfit that she thought made him look like a balloon with his already round body, she only hoped he wouldn't get angry as when he did his face turned a bright red and it would be difficult to spot him. She however was wearing some black flared jeans with a emerald green sweater and a white bow in her dark curls, she looked beautiful but no one would ever tell her that.

She stood frozen, Athena was about to turn around and change into what seemed to be the theme of the evening.

"I didn't know we had to dress in certain colours, I will go change in a moment." she muttered with a frazzled expression on her face.

"Oh no it's fine, we have to go and red was only for the actual family anyway." stated Lily clearly.

Tears welled up in Athena's gorgeous eyes, she refused to let them drop, she wasn't weak. Her ears seemed to block everything until all she could hear was the distant sound of waves clashing against the shore with a force that seemed to match her temper. She then noticed that her 'family' were already standing by the fire place having ignored her once more.

At the Evan's household...

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She was bored out of her mind but tried to look attentive, as soon as they had arrived they were greeted by their grandparents, Charles was the centre of attention as expected but she hadn't been pushed to the side yet so she was content. That was until they started making remarks on her appearance, they said things like:

'Oh Lily what have you been feeding your daughter she is starting to get a little chubby'

or things like... 

'If I were you i'd cut her food down, boys aren't attracted to cows. You were such a lovely kid Lily I don't know how this girl could possibly be yours'

But then they'd turn towards Charles and it seemed like a switch had been turned on, they were all kind and caring offering him cookies stating that they'd help him grow muscles and saying how he was very skinny and needed to grow. In the bottom of her heart she knew they were saying these things because they hate her and that she actually wasn't fat nor disgusting but she was only so old and she couldn't help but want their approval. 

When they got back to the potter manor she ran straight to her bedroom and locked herself in the bathroom. There she stood for hours on end staring at her reflection in the mirror with a stone cold face picking out every single imperfection, her legs were too long and her thighs too big, they touched in the slightest and that bothered her, her eyes were too big along with her lips. And then she broke down, tears started falling  from her eyes and she punched the mirror; the glass broke on her hands falling all over the tiled floor. Athena didn't stop there she continued to punch and punch the broken glass, her fists bloody and throbbing but she didn't care she felt numb. She hit and hit until she exhausted herself and slid down the wall of the bathroom, her legs and arms were covered in cuts from the glass on the floor, her hands were butchered and her bones were definitely broken but she couldn't bring herself to care. 

She stayed there looking into nothingness and vowed to herself that she'd make herself so perfect and powerful that no one would be able to find a single flaw on her.

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Resumé:

Athena visits her grandparents house from her mothers side where they all comment on her appearance and how she isn't skinny enough. When she arrives home she punches a mirror and vows to herself that she would be so powerful and perfect nobody will be able to find any flaw in her.

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How are you all doing? Hope everything is going fine on your end. 

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