my venting book=(

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I quit messenger I thought it would help! It didn't I just feel as if everyone is hating me more then they already did on that app, it's pathetic ik. I just left without leaving a note, I fucking told them i was deleting messenger spanish! I lost to friends I had for years,YEARS! I was friends with them for 4 years and all of that trust I had with them just thrown away I feel like everyone is judging me! I can't do anything right. It's my fault they hate me!... it's my fault I tried to be better I tried I really did it's like a addiction, it's hard to get over what you learned to do for so many years, and for me 
It's being the cold-hearted freak of schools, they say to change BUT THEY MADE ME LIKE THIS, I'm a monster of their creation!lmao i blame myself for things I've done. You know how villains how this really tragic reason their a villian? Well I do to, I'm the villain of every school I went to if its ether from my "scary look" or from my collection of weapons, I will always be the freak no matter how hard I try to be better I can't be better, I will never be better I'm better off dead,where everyone would cheer and laugh at my death!not to mention my fat body and ugly features,clothing style,and my music style... all shit