Remix on the second slide.
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And if you wondered if I hate you, I do.
Now why in the hell is everybody making a song about me? SZA and Kehlani's beef is dead ass over me. I know I ain't shit. Trust me I know that.
But for her to say she hates me? She know she lying. I smell the cap through the song. And that's not what we about to do.
Kehlani was out with her homegirl today so I was home alone. Solána texted me plenty times since Lani made that post on IG. She used the girls lyrics for the caption for crying out loud. Personally, I wouldn't accept that but that's just me.
I sat in the mini studio that I had in my house playing her song over and over again. Writing my own lyrics to it. If I responded to Lani's song then why not reply to hers.
This might make the situation worse but just like them telling they sides, I'ma tell mine. I put the headphone and pressed the record button. Here goes nothing.
How come you always saying bullshit?
Then I call you out and you go pout now we into it
You scream I hate you but we both know that's amusing
Then I fuck you good, you said you love me that's confusing, yeah
Don't bring that shit up in the past find something new
Know I say shit when I get mad we can talk it through
You know I keep my heart guarded I bought bulletproof
And I was taught to tie my shoe but still somehow I fell for you
And you know that
Send one more text and yo ass gon' be my throwback
No I'm not trippin' I'm just letting you know
Like certain shit don't be that deep because we been here before
You say you done, you wasting time
Then I respond, say ya fine girl take ya time
Don't really know what done got into you
This ain't what we finna do
But I'ma say this calm and collected
I hate you too
I play it back and liked how it sounded. I sat back in the chair just thinking. Even though I'm single I know I can't keep going back and forth between Kehlani and Solána.
I can't keep leading both girls on like that. Which is why, despite my response to her song, I've decided to tell Solána that we can no longer see each other.
I can't hide the way Kehlani makes my ass feel. It's no point in denying the shit nor should I continue to make Solána look stupid.
I sent her a well written text on my decision. I ain't even have the heart to at least call or do it in person. I still uploaded my version of her song. It's not like it really meant anything.
I never gotten a response from her but that's what I figured anyway. I decided to link up with the boys to get my mind off this shit.
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My mind is not off this shit. These niggas like gossiping about stuff like women do especially Herbo ass.
"I ain't even know yo ass could sing." Herb said.
"Y'all wasn't supposed to know." I say.
"So you done with that girl like for real?" Polo asks.
"Yes. I let her know what was up." I answer.
"That nigga in love with Kehlani ass." Durk laughs.
"No I'm not." I respond.
"You sure? I know this situation all too well. I went through it with Kylie." Travis said.
"Man I came to not think about this shit. Not talk about it the whole time. Y'all ain't do this when Crystal got took from Polo." I say.
"Why you always use that against me?" Polo asks.
"Cause it's embarrassing for you." I shrug.
"Anyway, let's slide to the club." Durk suggested.
Herb was the first one to get up and speed out the house.
"Damn nigga the club ain't going anywhere." Travis laughed.
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"Yo girl here." Herb said.
"What girl." I asked.
"Lani. She over there with that fine ass homegirl of hers." He answers.
"Taina gon whoop yo ass if she heard what you just said." I say.
I ended up zoning him out putting my attention on Kehlani. Being in the club right now was reminding me of our first time meeting. At least this time is better than the last.
Her eyes connected with mine and she smiled. She waved me over and I left the boys while they were mid conversation.
When I got there, Jenny respectfully said hey before walking away.
"I heard your remix to SZA's song." Lani said.
"Can I be honest?" I ask making her nod. "Most of it was about you."
"I hope it wasn't the part where you said I hate you." She chuckled.
"Nah it wasn't. I, uh, I cut Solána off actually." I reply.
She looked at me surprised like she never thought I would say that. But that didn't stop the smile across her face. "And what is that supposed to mean?"
"It means that I'm all about you. Ain't no more back and forth. I'm over all of that like I should've been in the first place." I answer.
"I've waited for you to say that ever since she came in the picture. But I'm not this gullible. You've got to show me that it's only me. Actions speak louder than words." Kehlani responds.
I already figured this before she even said it. It's just time for me to do what I was originally supposed to do. Ya know before Solána came into the frame.
"Yeah I know. Until then I'm telling you that it's only you." I say meaning every word.
She blushed deeply before leaning over to kiss me. With no hesitation I kissed back. This is the same girl I've wanted since I first laid eyes on her. I'm not fucking this up anymore.
Lani grabbed my hand most likely leading me to go dance with her. With my free hand I checked my vibrating phone.
solana💜 - you can't get rid of me that easily
Well shit.
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Long overdue I apologize
Not Proofread
Until Next Time.
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Gangsta Love - Kehlani/you
Fanfiction"I come from a very bad place. There's no way that you can love me." "But I want too. Let me at least try." (You g!p)
