P.s. in all my story's I write Agent Peters as Mathew because idk his real life name.
POV: Regina's
Date: August 23 5:00PM- August 24 7:00AM
Warnings: low self value, comparing body image
Chad- Alright, sounds like a wrap.
Me, Daniel, Melvin, Mathew- great!
Vy, Kimberly-Alright
Daniela-perfect!
Me-I'm gonna go to my room and call it a day if you all don't mind.
All-ok, good night
*I got up from the table around 5:40ish. Just after Me, Daniel, Chad, Vy, Melvin, Daniela, Derrick, Fabiola, Mathew, and Kimberly finished dinner and the work for tomorrows plan of filming. I decided to head into my room, I closed the door behind me. *
*I was in my room scrolling through instagram looking at raniel edits, I'm honestly obsessed with those, I mean I'm happy that I can be Daniels GF IRL and in the videos and after about 10-15 minutes I started seeing posts of these women who looked perfect. Hourglass body's, big chest big butts, beautiful faces, not a single pimple in view. There waists were so small and they were so skinny.*
I remember thinking 'I wish I looked like them'
I put my phone on my bed and looked at myself in the mirror I started judging myself and thinking I looked nothing like them my butt was not big enough I pinched my stomach and thought to myself I need to lose weight... I'm so fat... wtf am I doing wrong?!?!
* I locked my door and slammed my back into it sitting on my floor I felt as my tears started streaming down my face like waterfalls. I grabbed my phone again and played Jealousy by Olivia Rodrigo and laid down on the floor hugging Mr.Narwal. Putting myself down second by second even more. I layed on my floor for what felt like hours just replaying the song over and over again knowing I wasn't good enough I ended up crying myself to sleep until 2:24 AM I finally was able to sleep.*
Mhm
I said in discomfort as i was just waking up from my alarm going off, I turned it off and asked myself
what time is it?
I reached for my phone and turned it on and squinted as I tried to read the time because I was still half asleep.
The time said it was 5:00AM which is the usual time I get up if I want to go for a 20 minute run with Daniel and if I want to get coffee afterwards but today I didn't feel like it. I got up from the floor and sat on my bed I looked in the mirror and saw mascara all over my eyes from me crying yesterday so I wiped my makeup off and changed my clothes I put on a black crop top and black jeans with Daniels blue spy ninjas hoodie on top of my crop top I put on some hooped earrings and a heart necklace Daniel gave to me I put on the skull rings I stole from Melvin and put on my vans I put up my hair in a half ponytail. I did my makeup again and I looked a little bit more put together so I got out of my room and woke Daniel up.
Me and Daniel got McDonald's for breakfast and when we headed back home it was around 7:00AM we started filming.
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