Behind These Eyes

I swallowed hard, trying my best not to become nervous around the blue haired girl i knew forever-ago sense we were young.  For some reason today, i kept seeing more of her today; i realized that i hadn’t seen things in her i had never seen in her before.  I realized how much she’s grown up.  Just how her hair touches her face, how she wears her hair so beautifully. Gosh, i remember her long beautiful blue hair hitting her shoulders, how beautiful it was. I wonder why i keep getting these strange thoughts? Why was i falling for her, i hadn’t had a chance to figure it out or to even hide it. A smile grew on my face once she came outside which caused her to grow confused, realizing that i had been watching her the home time she blushed. “What is it Yahiko?” she asked me with a smile.  “Oh, n-nothing!” i stuttered taking a big step back, very unsure of myself. She blushed brighter her lips parting as a giggle broke out.  “Are you sure Yahiko?” “Fine, just a bite tired i guess” i smiled; hoping that giving a smile would help with my lame convincing answer. “Did you sleep well? Nightmares Yahiko?!” She asked sounding more worried then ever now as she bite her piercing her blue eyes piercing wide.  “Ehh... No Konan! I’m fine! I promise!” throwing my hands up as to say stop, calm down. “Good, because i don’t like you when you have those nightmare you do know that isn’t your fault for Nagato don’t you?” “Konan, i know..” i said as i started to think as the pain started to over whelm me again.. She could easily see through my fake smile, she got up and wrapped her arms around me in a comforting hug, as though it was washing it all away with the touch of her fingers, as it touched my tanned skin.  “Why don’t you go lay down, i’ll make lunch today.” I responded with a warm smile before letting go of her. “Are you sure?” i said trying to fight with her, knowing she’d already won this one, and she was right. “ Yes Yahiko! Now go!” she said laughing, eagerly pushing me towards the sofa in the next room.   I lied my head against the sofa pillow, letting my thoughts pour into my mind, wondering, racing on how nagato was doing, hooked up to that thing that seemed to be draining every ounce of him into.  Pein. That’s what they called me now, except for Konan, she just couldn’t find it in her to call me Pein, she said that wasn’t who i was to her.... i mean to her, and only her i will always be Yahiko... But to myself, i can’t say to myself, after Nagato gave up his life to restore mine with the six-pain jutsu.  I had lost all wanting to bring piece upon this world, deciding it can cry it wants, because i’m still crying myself.