Heart of Fire ~ BVB Fanfic - Touring with series (2)

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We have a week remaining of our time here with our family, I haven't hung out with all the boys at all but they were planning to go to the beach today and begged me into going. I am taking my car with Andy while my brother goes and picks up the other boys. My brother had left ten minutes ago agreeing for me to wait a couple minutes before I leave because I only have to pick up on the one. They haven't seen all the tattoos on my body so this will be a surprise for them all, especially my two thigh pieces that are my most detailed and ones that I drew myself. I grab a long thin sweater to put over that goes down to the bottoms of my thighs, covering me a lot. I put my hair in a messy bun with a few messy pieces out of it at the front before grabbing my sunglasses and heading down the stairs "See you mum and dad!" I yell out, they had these two weeks off to be with us as much as they could. It has been weird being here again, and I have slept either in with Ash or Andy every night, not daring once to enter my old room. 

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I pull up to Andy's, so happy to be back in my car after the longest time without it. Music blares through my subs that I put in with the help of Ashley, my car was always the best for playing music out of all of the boys cars and I had loved it that way. I look up to see Andy, looking good as always but especially with his swimming shorts and a loose tee on him showing his tattoos and toned body. I shake my head as he hops into the car beside me, smiling at me before looking over my outfit and laughing softly which I join before I shift my car into reverse, heading for the beach now. 

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We get to the beach, walking down with our drinks that Andy brought with him for us which of course is again my favourite energy drink. I haven't had any alcohol for three days now, and only two smokes so I do feel a bit more normal like it was before I used it to comfort me everyday. I look over the beach, spotting the group of boys and grabbing Andy's hand to lead him to them. They all notice us coming except my brother who is facing the other way, I dash up and jump on his back laughing with him as gasps then quickly adjusts and begins spinning us around in circles before dropping me down on one of the towels on the ground, he knew how much sand annoyed me when it was all over my face. I giggle, taking my sunglasses of my head and laying them in the pile of shoes before taking my sandals off and adding them there too. I then stand up, stripping the long sweater off when I feel all eyes on me. None of them are sexual, more curious and surprised looking over my tattoos. 

"Holy shit, your thighs!" CC gasps out, looking at them. 

I raise each thigh to let them see a better view before speaking "I drew them myself, are we done staring now?" They all nod and I smile then look over to see Andy still eyeing me and I grow conscious of my body which never usually happens, I have had sex with enough people now to not care so why am I so nervous of him all of a sudden. I shake my head to the rid the thoughts, before waving to them and dashing off straight into the cold water which sparks my body alive. Soon the boys join me, we are going quite far out to where the water sits still, we begin laughing and talking even bringing up old fond memories of ours which makes me smile for once instead of want to down a bottle of booze. 

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We begin to have prawny skin so we decide on getting out, feeling the cool breeze on my wet body makes me let out a big deep breath that allows my whole body to relax happily. 

"Race you!" Screams Jake with all the boys following except Andy but I wave him off to join them, he smiles and does so while I turn back towards the water looking out into the distance as my feet still are under the waters surface and the wind bashes against my skin delicately. For once I let a small smile spread on my face, a real one that comes from a relaxed body. I turn and begin to walk up while looking around at the couples, groups and families enjoying their time here on the beach just like my group causing me to glance at them but before my eyes can even cast upon them I see something else. 

I wake up, smiling at the boy next to me before I let out a cuss seeing the time on the alarm next to my bed and that my parents will be home within the hour. I rotate my body to face him, gasping to see his eyes already open and he is on his phone. He notices my movement and shifts his eyes up at me only now speaking "Your parents will be here soon beautiful so I should leave but I just wanted to see your eyes first." I smile at him, pressing my lips against his. We kiss for a while, before it can go anywhere I pull away and swear I hear a groan of annoyance from him but I try to tell myself that wasn't what it was. We got up, and I walked him to the front door and that was when my fantasy world had been set to end.

I gasp seeing Blake, he is with a petite light brunette, dressed in a white bikini set with light makeup on and lots of white gold rings and necklaces including one around her neck loosely with a B on it. My whole world freezes again, I gave him a piece of me that I would never regain. Before I can move out of his sight, he looks up and spots me. I see a small smirk tug on his lips but his girlfriend says something causing him to look back over to her then he leans in to her while side glancing to make sure I am seeing it. I feel the need to escape. I start rushing away when I begin to think about it, wasn't he with Lucy? That was ages ago I guess but I could of swor- my thoughts are cut off when I feel a hand on me, turning to see Jake looking at me worriedly "Hey what's wrong?" 

I don't reply because I see Blake again over his shoulder, air gets caught in my lungs and I can sense a panic attack coming on so instead of staying here and making a fool of myself, I bolt all the way back to my car to only remember I don't have my keys. I cuss as I begin to pace in front of it, unknowing what to do. I don't have my phone, my keys, my shoes- nothing. It is all back down there on that beach with those people, those people who have made unkind memories haunt me constantly. 

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