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I want to die with you...Dazai x reader angst BSD

TW: mentions of suicide which can be uncomfortable with some readers don't read unless you can face the consequences (also don't steal my fucking ideas as politely as i can be ty)

Y/N (gender neutral)

You awoke from your peaceful slumber by a text from your boyfriend Dazai.

Babe: 'It's time, lets do this...Meet me on the rooftop at 9pm'

Y/N: 'ok got it.'

seen

8 years ago...

So let's talk more about this relationship and how it's got to this point that now two lovebirds will tragically die on this auspicious night. Well it all started when you met him in the port mafia and you found him quite amusing by his suicidal nature which was far beyond your comprehension at that time. His alluring beauty and gorgeously dark eyes caught you off guard and you found him quite attractive by his flirty personality and his obsession to commit double suicide with a beautiful women. You couldn't lie but the very thought of this idea somehow consumed you with jealousy. You wanted him more than ever and when your eyes made contact, an uneasy tension built inside your heart. Every time you would get paired together to complete missions and at each encounter you found him even more appealing and you understood him both emotionally and intellectually. He would always give you playful
glances and smirks whenever you brutally murder people which made your tender heart flutter. Once you caught him staring sexually at your figure which made you flush in embarrassment. You thought that maybe he liked you too but you were afraid to confess to him as you oversaw the direct consequences of this forbidden love. You oversaw that his behaviour could only be due to your irresistible looks that you were quite insecure about. So you just left it as that of only being partners in crime until one dangerous mission, one decision changed your life forever.

You took position ready to gorge out your enemies guts with your gun at hand. Dazai was behind you as back up until something went wrong. After all, he is much stronger than you than he looked. His warm tingling breath stroked your bare neck making you shiver slightly in return. You had to keep it together, you didn't want to be defeated because of something silly did you. After you easily shot the living blood of your enemies, you triumphed in glee and unknowingly wrapped your arms around your lovers neck and kissed him lightly on the cheek. 'Oh shi-' you thought and quickly retracted back to your place. 'I... I'm so sorry, i don't know what came to me that-' you were caught off guard with a warm pair of soft lips placed on yours. Countless thoughts were racing in your mind and your heart was beating rapidly because of the heat between you two. 'Don't be..' he hissed in your ear. You ears still burn till this day caused by the ringing of those two words. That one event changed you and you both started dating . Your dream finally came true after all that time which was really only 11 months. You were happy to spend time with him and go on fun adventures but most of all you were excited to die with him...

Present time :

The whole day passed almost so bitterly and so slowly but you were overjoyed with pleasure that the time has ultimately come collectively to a near end of both of your lives. You put on your favourite ruby red dress that was gifted to you by your one and only and did your hair and face which will be the last time that you ever do. I put on my jacket and heels and stepped out the door trying to not make much noise. I glanced above the twinkling stars in the night sky to calm my nerves. The moon illuminating the large city buildings. I didn't know how long I've walked for until I was met with the memorable long flight of stairs I hadn't seen for ages. I carefully stepped on each stair and stood at the edge of the empty roof, a bit exhausted. I inhaled the frosty breeze while listening to the slight hustles of the wind. Rain pattered down on my bruised skin making me shiver a little. I thought to myself what could have been if HE was still by my side at that very moment. Tears strode down soaking the concrete ground. From that point on I didn't realise that I was being watched by none other than Dazai. He came from behind and brushed my tears away from my eyes with sadness contemplated on his fragile face. I cried even harder and buried my head in his chest. We cuddled each other other and he reassuringly comforted me. 'Shhh..babe I love you and you know that. We will be connected together even after death. After all your the only women I want to do this with, only you'. The words left his mouth and it indulged me with bravery. This was the best thing that I was going to do. 'Now let's do it'. I intertwined my hand with his and squeezed it to calm down. I deeply consumed myself in his eyes and before we knew it we jumped off the balcony on the count of three. I embraced Dazai with a tight hug and pecked his lips passionately. We fell fast and the pain rushed through my body. My face was gushing out thick blood and I felt the hot red fluids drenching my clothes matching perfectly with it. My ears rung loudly but I could still hear the faint noises of sirens and people overcrowding the area chattering. I half opened my eyes to lastly see my love's face but to my surprise he wasn't there. Of course he isn't. In contrary, he was murdered 5 years ago. All this time when I thought Dazai was still here with me it was a delusion. A figment of my damned imagination. I uttered a light smirk. 'I'm coming to heaven my love' If there is a God I want him to re unite me back to Dazai, I want to ask him why he broke our promise 8 years ago, I want him to tell me how much he fucking loves me that he will not make me walk for days. I NEED HIM... Before my mind blanked completely flashbacks of me and him still lingered. Now isolated and alone...

THE END...

Author's message: so this is my first time writing this story and i really hope you like it as i have worked so hard on this story. So fingers crossed you will support me in my desire to write more of these shits. xx