TBATE : Infinite Loops [Discontinued]

3 - The Emotions

"And I'd be lying if I said I didn't know from the start. That there was something in between us that would keep us apart"
-Hindenburg Lover by Anson Seabra-

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POV : Arthur Leywin

(Arthur's 2nd Life)

My eyes are very heavy, like there is an intoxicating mist that makes me want to close my eyes. My body seemed to float, neither standing nor feeling anything beneath me. The voices around me are unilluminated, as if they never existed and have no harmonics at all.

I just stare at the roof above me, but as time has passed, my vision is getting narrower, and these eyes get heavier. Until I close my eyes.

The darkness immediately greeted me. Hugs me and wraps me in its emptiness.
It's dark, gloomy, and no-light.

Where am I?

This feeling...
A feeling I've had before.
Ah, maybe a few hundred years ago--or thousands years ago? I don't know...
I even forgot to count the time.
This feeling...when I was sent to this world..

I lived bravely and sacrificed many things in this life.
Struggled as hard as I could, and lost many people I love.
And after fighting for it, after I won everything, it turns out that I realised one thing, there is no right or wrong in this world.
There are only us who feel right so what we feel is right too.

And I fought for what I thought was right in this world, ignoring the fact that many people suffer as a result of my decisions.

But, I don't have to worry about anything now.
My life, now, has ended, and I'll meet my wife and my children, again.

I..
Miss her..
When my wife died, the time around me seemed to stop moving, every second seemed to laugh and mock me.
But when I'm with her, the time around me seems to pass quickly, because I really enjoy our time together.

There is a feeling of gratefulness that flows through every inch of my soul and my body when I imagine that I'll meet my wife and my child. It wasn't the feeling of dread I thought I would experience when facing death.

And whoever holds the power of life and death will bring me to meet my wife and my child this time. So what do I have to worry about?

But, is there really a life after a death?

But, will I, who is considered a god in this world, who can wield a power beyond anything in this world, have a peaceful death?

But, I'm not going through that tunnel this time, am I? The tunnel that brought me to this world before.

In the static emptiness embraced by the darkness, I imagined the face of my wife who smiled lightly and reached out her hand to reach me. Her last sentence even echoed in my mind at this moment, her soft voice even hummed gradually, echoing bouncing back and forth in my head.

"I hope we can meet again, goodbye and take care Arthur...."

And I gladly welcome the darkness this time, waiting for us to meet again.
The darkness kept getting darker, misty, and denser. And I float in between them.

"-thur!" Wait! What sound is that? There's a voice in this darkness

"--thur!" Is that my wife's voice? The voice that called out to me and her voice made me want to open my eyes.

"Arthur..." That's right, the voice called my name, and I just had to open my eyes right?

"Arthur!"

I jolted open my eyes, my heart was beating really hard. My eyes adjusted to the sudden light. The sound around me even seemed blurry and indistinct. It was as if my body was still adjusting to the light and sound around me.