I feel like I push you away sometimes and I want you to know if you ever feel that I do, I promise it's not intentional. One day I want to grow deeper in love and the next, I want to disappear. I think it's because you scare me. A love this deep, a love that brings peace is different for me. I'm still in survival mode the majority of the time and we all know romance does not thrive well in that space. I really don't want to sabotage what we have so I'm trying hard to reassure my spirit that it's safe here. That you are not my enemy. That I can trust again. That I can be as soft as I want to be. That I am worthy and deserving of all the sweet and warm love God has set for me and so are you.
