The Great Tomb of Nazaricks Gorgon Supreme being

Why is this world so cruel

Y/n Gorgon pov
I have decided that I would make a memorial for my two friends the ones who always took care of me yeah they would tease me at times and make fun of me but they still love me. As I walk through the halls of the great tomb of Nazareth I wish they could have been here. They were just like me they weren't human and they were Gorgons. We even had a title and everything the three Gorgon sisters. Even though I wasn't a girl I still like the name it had a nice ring to it. As I travel the tune I stumble across a garden. This would have been perfect if we would have made a home here. I didn't realize I was crying until I was tapped on my shoulder. I must have been crying rather loudly about almost all the NPCS here.
"My lord is everything all right" Shelter says with concern in her voice.
"It's nothing major just thinking about some mistakes that I made in the past" I say looking down in shame.
"My lord you can do no wrong you are a supreme being" She says back worried.
"Oh but even the most perfect of beings make mistakes, you mistake that I made was losing control. As you all know I am the last line of defense for the tomb. And the reason why that is is because of pandemonium cactus it turned me into the true Gorgon. Back then I used to never even be a part of the tomb I lived a simple life I was part of an adventurer's guild I meant two people who I loved dearly they were sisters to me. We connected so well they too were also Gorgons but instead of having me more monsters look like me they possessed immense beauty and bewitched men and women. Granted they never acted upon these feelings we tried to keep to ourselves. But one day our guild was attacked like all good things they must come to an end. When we were attacked I came into a bloody rage and activated pandemonium ketus I killed everyone enemy and Ally. I did something that I will never forgive myself for that I will always regret this day. Sometimes I wonder if immortality is a blessing or a curse. But then I found you all you took me in treated me like family helped me with my grievance and my despair. I swear though on the day that I killed my allies that I would never again turn into the true Gorgon no matter what the cost even if it cost my own life." I say closing my eyes.
When I do I expected silence and for them to walk away to not have sympathy for a monster like me but they all hugged me and said that it wasn't my fault but I did it to protect them to help them and that it was an accident. I swear with all of my power I will make sure that none of you die ever