THIRTY (completed)

Bestfriend

Chapter 21

Abby

Tuloy parin ako sa pag iyak. Kailangan ko si Roxy siya lang naman yung makakaintindi saken sa ngayon.

Ang bigat nang pakiramdam ko.

Huminga ako nang malalim. Sana lumipas na tong sakit na nararamdaman ko.

Di ko kaya nang ganito,halos maubusan na ko nang hininga sa kakaiyak.

Maalala ko lang si Lucas,umiinit na gilid nang mata ko. Im so dumb!!

Ito na ba ang kabayaran sa ginawa ko dati. Minahal ko naman siya pero huli na talaga,hindi na magiging kami ulit.

Kailangan ko na ba talaga siya palayain,kung kaya ko lang sana,Na parang pagsinabi ko na na kakalimutan ko na siya ay mawala agad. Pero hindi,masakit...

Ganito pala ang pakiramdam nang isang taong nagmahal ng lubos na di kayang suklian ng taong mahal mo. Napangiti lang ako. Kakalmahin ko sarili.

Biglang nang ring ang phone ko..Si Roxy ang caller.

"Hellow" humihikbi akong pasagot at mas lalo pa akong naiyak.

"What happened to you? Why are you crying?" worried na tanong ni Roxy.

"Roxy,ayaw na talaga sa akin ni Lucas. He told me straight to my face na wala nang chance na makabalikan kami." halos di ko na masabi dahil umiiyak parin ako.

"Why? Anong nangyari?

Ikinuwento ko sa kanya ang unplanned declaration of love ko kay Lucas at kung paano nag react si Lucas.

Napasinghap si Roxy nang matapos magkwento.

"Anong plano mo ngayon?"

"I dont know. I already bared my heart to him at hindi ko na alam kung ano ang gagawin ko para magbago ang isip niya."

"Right. The ball is now in his court. Maybe in time,mare-realize din niya na love is worth risking his heart again.

Just be patient with him. In the meantime, why dont we go out this Friday para maka-relax ka.

Mahirap naman kasing ipilit ang isang bagay na baka hindi na mangyari.

Kaya oras na rin sigurong may makilala kang ibang lalaki."

"Okay,ka lang, Roxy? Sa tingin mo ba,makakatingin pa ako sa ibang lalaki after Lucas?

It would take me a long time bago ako makarecover sa rejection niya."

"Abby, alam kong you're hurting but you dont have to wallow in self-pity dahil hindi ka mahal ni Lucas.

There are still a lot of fish in the sea,far better than him,so better get your act together,if you want a boyfriend before your thirtieth birthday." sermon ni Roxy.

"Napaka-insensitive ma naman friend. Kita mo ngang heartbroken ako, tapos gusto mong maghanap agad ako ng kapalit niya?"

"Abby,the only way to get over him is to find someone else. Love is fleeting.

Sabi mo,mahal mo siya,but when you meet the next guy ay puwedeng mabura si Lucas sa puso mo."

"Roxy do you think na ganoon lang kadaling mawala ang feelings ko kay Lucas?

I'm telling you now,kung hindi rin lang si Licas ang makakatuluyan ko,then I'd rather remain single forever."

" Sorry,hindi ko naman minamaliit ang feelings mo. Kaya lang, he already made up his mind.

Hindi naman yata tama na burahin mo na lang ang sarili mo. Sige, I'll let you cry and be miserable for a while but I'll do everything para makaahon ka from your misery.

I wont allow you to waste your life over someone who's not ready to love you."

"I dont know,Roxy. Hindi ko alam kung kailan ako magiginh handang makipagsapalaran uli sa pag ibig." sagot ko habang patuloy ang pagtulo ng mga luha ko.

"I'm really sorry,Abby. Kung alam ko lang na ganito ang sasapitin mo,hindi na sana kiya pinilit na magtrabaho para sa kanya."

"Dont feel guilty,Roxy. Talaga sigurong guhit ng kapalaran ko ito.

I had my chance with him but I blew it,and now its his turn to reject me.

In short,karma ko ito dahil hindi ko pinag-ingatan ang relasyon namin noon."

"Hay, Abby,enough already. Dont make this as if you're at fault. Hindi lang kayo meant for each other and that's it. Hind ito karma or whatever. Take a grip,friend,and let's enjoy life."

"Okay,sige, I'll try but noy now. May e later. Let me be with my pain for a while,then when I'm ready, I'll let you know then." sabi ko sa kanya.

Alam kong hindi niya ako titigilan sa mga sermon niya kata minabuti kong omu-o na lang. Although Roxy had some valid points,.

I nevertheless...

I felt I was not ready to put myself out in the market again.

I knew that another rebound relationship was not the solution for my broken heart.

The truth was my heart still yearned that Lucas would learn to love me again.

Sometimes no matter how hard you try, people leave.

And it hurt,but you have to let them go.

People aren't something that can even be locked up.

If they choose to walk away, they will no matter what.

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