Who am I?

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In the palace late at night... Seated at the bar is the great chuck bass... Immediately it clocks 12 like a sad fairy tale Nate enters the bar and spots his dear old best friend? More like ex-best friend since they don't talk much to each other... Well mostly Nate, or that's what he wants chuck to think, but deep down he just wants his old buddy back.

"Hey" Nate says as he approaches chuck

"Hey yourself..."chuck looks at him drearily "are we talking now?"

"I guess so...I mean it's been almost a year" he looks at chuck... "It's been too long chuck, so what do you say...?" he sticks out his hand to chuck... chuck shakes him

"Yea ...yea I guess so..."he takes a swing of his drink... "So... How have you been...? We havent talked much since uhh"

"Since I slammed in the car at school" Nate ruffles his blonde hair back orders another drink this time its vodka very dirty

"Yea... I remember that day...ha...worst day of my life"

Nate looks at his friend and realizes he has changed... The chuck he knew never cared about anything hell or even anyone, but since Blair he has changed... He has been mourning her like a widower who lost his beloved wife...he even mourns Blair more than him these days ... Although no one mourns Blair more than her sister/best friend Serena

"Yea...that's everyone's worst day ever... Sometimes I blame myself..."chuck looks at him like he was crazy... Nate looks at him and look away "She came up to me that day to explain or apologize... I don't know"

"And?"

"I basically told her to fuck off..."Nate takes a swing at his dirty vodka and breathes out "I just turned her down, told her to leave" chuck looks at him again, buh this time he looks at nate like he has lost his mind, then looks straight ahead like he is lost in some outer space dimension.

"She came to me that same night... I said some mean mean things to her..."it was like chuck sobered up as he talked and Nate could just see pain and someone dying inside... Chuck looks at him and tries to smirk buh couldn't pull it off... So he laughs it off... "Well I basically called her a slut and told her that she was my dad's old sweaty horse... I mean who says that to someone...especially someone the cared about...I feel like I actually took her to her death..."finally a lucky tear finds its way out of chuck tear glands

Nate looks at chuck and slaps his back gently "we all made mistakes that we cant take back now... And am sure she is up in heaven somewhere making sure the angels are not wearing tights as pants"

At that Nate laughs out loud while chuck just stares ahead and smirk... Chuck brings his glass up and Nate does the same and they clink them together... "To Blair who we didn't deserve, but miss her dearly" they both smiled and drank to that.

"Hey... Take it easy. It was a hard fall with no one there to catch u"

"Oh... No wonder my head hurts" holly looks at Dave and could see the worry etched on his face... "Hey did I cause a big scene at dad's memorial service?"

"No holly" he tucks her hair back... He loves to do that to his mom but since his mom passed away. He has been doing it to her... "Am just worried... I don't want to lose u too"

"Hey... Hey... Don't talk Like that... I just fell... It just happens mostly at burials like at moms... "Am ok I promise..." She tries to smile

"Today it's just a fall... tomorrow I wonder what's next...You don't need to lie to me holly... I know you are remembering at least bits and pieces... Am just worried next time you try remembering no one would be there and this time u might fall very hard"