A series of BTS love

#4 J-Hope

Your role : Kim Yeri

Today we're going on a date to the amusement park. "what should i wear.. Hmm i think i just wear this oversize sweater with jeans and sneakers , okay then it's all set up". Oh yeah you maybe thinking how am i getting ready that fast? Usually it only takes 15 minute max for me to get dressed and usually i just tied my hair in a ponytail or just simply brush it.

Don't get me wrong but i just like simple and comfort clothes, i'm not really that kind of girly girl type that heels can be heard from 1 km away. And i don't wear that much of make up , actually i don't wear it at all. I'm more to that kind of tomboyish style, i don't know but it just felt comfortable.

Maybe people will think that if i wear that kind of clothes for a date it might look like i'm not showing my interest , but i wear what i want to wear and this far Heosok oppa never complaint so i think it's okay.

*the car honk sound* "ahh that must be Heosok oppa , i better hurry" i put everything in my bagpack , wear my sneakers , lock the front door and get inside the car.

"Heosok oppa annyeong!!" I said with a big smile on my face. "Yeri~aa i miss you so much!!" He then pinch my cheeks and kiss me. "Oppa are you excited about today??" I ask happily. "Of course i'm excited why wouldn't i be? I'm always excited when i'm with you anyway". Even though it's been 3 months since we've been together , i still blush like crazy when he says something sweet and let me tell you something , it happened all the time.

"If you continue being sweet like that i'm scared i would get diabetes oppa" i said shyly and he laugh at my comment , "aww Yeri~aa you're so cute". Our car rides continue and we talk a lot more , and that's what i like about him , he never ran out of topic and our conversation never gets awkward, he just makes me feel comfort around him.

Half an hour later we arrived at the amusement park, he parked his car and we get inside the amusement park. "Aaaa i like it so much , there're so many things we can play here!!!!" I scream like a little kid. "Calm down yaa Kim Yeri! People are staring at you hahahaa come here you little goof" he then hold my hands and put it in his coat , what a happy day.

When we're walking people are staring at us. At first i don't understand why but then i heard some girls said "omg, that guy is so handsome ! But sadly his girl didn't fit him well, i mean who's the guy here really they both look like a man"

Oh i think i forget to tell you that my body is a bit manly like with my broad shoulder and i'm quite tall and i'm lacking in the chest department so yeah i can look a little bit manly sometimes.

When i heard those girls i feel kinda insecure about my self, this is not the first time i heard that kind of comment. Usually Hobbie oppa would say "just forget it , talking trash about you didn't make themselves higher than you" and usually i just let it slide.

But the more i hear it the more insecure i become. I really love Hoseok oppa but i feel sad if he have to be with a girl that appearance is questionable.
That whole day i think about that over and over again.

Should i break up with him so he can get a better girl or shoul i change myself to a more lady like girl? "Ya Kim Yeri!", i snap from my thoughts. "I've been calling your name like hundreds time , what happen to you? Since this morning you've zoning out over and over again"

"No, i'm okay oppa i just feel kind of light headed , i think we should go home" i said. "If that's what you want then let's go home , but are you sure you're okay?", "i'm okay oppa don't worry about me". Our car rides never been this quiet before, the whole ride from the amusement park to my house was filled with silence.

He dropped me at my house and then kissed me before i leave the car. I waited for him to start his car and leave first before i got in. When i get in to my room i couldn't hold it in anymore. The tears that are attempting to fall down , the tears that i tried to hold back earlier are now rolling down my cheeks.