Glimpse of us

Chapter I

We were both in 3rd year high school, I wasn't expecting to see you again but I did.  Your brother told me that I should go to the same university he went to and asked if we could sit together at the same table. It seemed a bit weird, seeing you after so long but when I heard you speak I knew immediately it was you.
When the professor gave us our syllabus we had a short discussion about it and after some time decided on what we would be studying. You said something along the lines of "I don't believe there is anything in this university capable of teaching me anything." We joked around for a while and soon enough we were sitting together and discussing our plans.
It was a good time
"Hey uh nathalie? I just wanted to say I have a new girlfriend already.." you looked at me with a sort of sad expression and continued to say "Oh..Congrats!.." with those words spoken I felt my heart broken, I knew she hasn't moved on and I haven't— either. Fast forward after class, I was with Naomi— "James! Over here!" Naomi shouted,,, I noticed her and immediately walked up to her "Naomi! Hey.." I said. She hugged me tight before saying, "So I saw your little crush..." I blushed and quickly grabbed her wrist before saying "Shut up!" with those words said. I looked at Naomi who was looking at me like an idiot "Oh come on I can totally tell" Naomi began laughing " "She's my ex Naomi.." I replied "Oh damn.. Sorry dude, but seriously are you over her?" she said with a somewhat sad yet confused face. The question caused me to slightly hesitate which she noticed "Wait I didn't mean to pry!! Just... Are you okay?" I shook my head as I took a few deep breaths, trying my best not cry in front of her. I turned around and sat next to Naomi "Hey Naomi..." I softly spoked "Yea?" Naomi said "I got together with Caroline to move on from Nathalie but....it's not working.." I told her all of that while trying to hold back tears "James..." Naomi said with a concerned look "I want to be with Nathalie again, I still love her...But I'm afraid I'll hurt Carolines feelings..." I said "James..You will probably hurt Caroline because Caroline loves you, like a lot...So it would hurt like hell for her when you leave her just to get back with someone you loved in your past.." Naomi replied "But why wouldn't I want to move on with her? It's better than never having been with her.." I retorted. My reply angered Naomi because she stood up from her chair and began yelling "James! Why don't you think about yourself instead of her?!" she said as she stomped her foot on the ground "Because you seem to be forgetting the fact that I loved Nathalie too..." she yelled "How about you focus on you and stop thinking about how you feel for once!" she added. She then stormed away and left me alone. A few days past and I wasn't talking to anyone, I avoided Naomi, didn't talk to nathalie, and not even to noah. It somewhat felt lonely knowing you have no one to go to when you're in the blue but my world lit up again when I suddenly saw Caroline. I was sitting alone reading a book in a library when she appeared in front of me. I stared at her and she slowly approached me, I couldn't help but let out a small smile. I looked down at her and smiled "Caroline... Hi.." "Hello James... How have you been?" she asked me softly as she placed her hand on my shoulder "Uh well I'm actually doing great... How about you?? What are you studying? And why are you always in this corner of the library?" I said with slight annoyance. She laughed softly and replied "Well James... I was going to do something fun today so... I came here to read and study", "Fun huh?" I said "Well yeah... I guess" "Okay... Well... Can I ask you something?" Caroline gave me a nod and I continued "Do you ever wish that we hadn't gotten together in the first place?" Caroline looked at me with a confused expression "Wish what James?" she asked. I simply replied "That we had never met..." Caroline was quiet for a moment before answering "I do... Every day" she replied. "Then why did you agree to date me... I know it wasn't because you liked me or anything like that, but I still thought maybe you regretted it or wanted to break things off" I confessed. Caroline was silent for a few seconds before finally responding "Because I fell for someone else..." she replied before breaking into tears, "Caroline I..." I said as I hold back tears "I'm so sorry james..! But I don't like nor love you anymore..." "It's alright..", was this deja vu? wasn't this exactly how me and nathalie ended? I don't want to experience this again, but I do feel bad for Caroline because she doesn't lift the world off my shoulder like nathalie did if it was ever hard for me to move, she never turned the rain into a rainbow like Nathalie did when I was living in the blue, whenever I look into Carolines eyes— I see a glimpse of us.  "You're such a sweet person Caroline... Thank you for loving me". With those words, Carolines face turned red and tears began running down her cheeks "You're an absolute idiot James... Of course I loved you... Please don't ever think otherwise".