Glimpse of us

Chapter II

After the breakup I tried to forget you and move on. I didn't want to hurt anymore, but I couldn't help it... Even though I tried, your name popped up everytime I was on the verge of crying, it's almost like I was waiting for you, I've spent so much time wishing I was the only one who lost their relationship with the person they loved, and I knew that I had to make a decision eventually.
One evening, a couple of months after Carolines departure, my sister called telling me that she found someone. I'm happy that Caroline found somebody better than me who can make her smile and laugh like I never did, who made her feel worthy— but it's hard for me to know that I'm not the one she loves anymore... If only you were still around...
Two years passed, two whole fucking years without you in my life and I've managed to keep it together until now, until my family got into a car accident, which left my mother, aunt and uncle in critical condition... I couldn't afford to lose them too... That night when I went home with my father, he told me the news. They died within minutes from a brain aneurysm, they weren't able to fight back against whatever was attacking them and were very weak when we arrived at the hospital. When I heard the news it immediately broke me into pieces, first nathalie, second caroline and now my family??? Am I unlucky or was this all destiny?.. Was I destined to lose everyone I've grown attached to and was going to end up being alone for the rest of my life? It feels like everything happened so fast, and it hurts way too much. I just need some time to heal
When the funeral came around I was numb. I couldn't remember a single thing my parents say, I wasn't even there, I barely spoke during the funeral itself. I've known my parents since I was born so it hurts even more when they died. My father is my hero... My mother used to sing to me in the morning, sometimes she'd put me into bed and cuddle me when she was finished, and she taught me to read and write when I was younger, both my parents taught me to respect others, respect them and show them kindness. I was raised by my uncle since before I could walk... When I was four my father left me with him... I didn't realize that until later, he just couldn't take care of me properly, so I stayed with my uncle all the time.
My uncle started to hit me and drink, I couldn't sleep peacefully at night unless I slept outside. He used to sell drugs and beat his girlfriend, his wife, my mother when she visited us from time to time. I learned to hide in the garage when I'm alone so no one can find me when I'm scared. I was eight years old and still living under his roof... I had nothing and no one to rely on but myself... I started to wonder if I should really be alive anymore after losing everyone close to me... I was so alone... I hated feeling like that, I wished that I could have been stronger than this, I wished that I could be different.