Things starts to shift

Part one

It was Sunday morning.
I usually get up at 9.00 am every day without a minute late. I managed to go to the kitchen and make my husband breakfast, before he heads to work. He got downstairs gave me a kiss on the cheeks, then took his breakfast to work. As I was walking to the bathroom my nose started bleeding out of nowhere. I then went to wash my nose and clean my bloody shirt. I panicked because this never happened to me. This nose bleed makes me remember my mom's disease called Cancer. Back in the day my mom used to bleed heavily due to being diagnosed with cancer. This brings me back to the awful experience she had. But this can't be Cancer. Maybe it's just because of how stressed I'm these days. I don't know, I need to call Jessie my best friend in the whole world. We share the same birthday. Our mothers are also BFF's since forever. She is also a nurse she will know what's wrong with me. I picked the phone and called her. I say "Hi Jessie". She replies "Hi Amanda this is early for you to call?, what's wrong". I then say " I don't know but my nose bleed and you know my mom and that". She then says "oh dear, don't worry about it it's nothing". I then say "yeah, maybe I'm overacting." She then says "anyway are you coming tomorrow for our reading club". Me and Jessie joined the Wonderful Reading Club last Wednesday. The club has five members besides me and Jessie. I actually joined it because I need inspiration for my novel ,that I'm currently writing. So I said " sure, I'm coming.". then I hang up. My evil thoughts are running in my head. Or you would call the OCD ( obsessive compulsive disorder). I got diagnosed with OCD when I was 17. Now that I'm 25 you can say I managed some of my thoughts. I see a shrink once a week without my husband nor my best friend knowing. Don't get me wrong I trust both Jessie and my husband Tom. But I don't trust myself enough to tell them. And I can assure you people who don't have a mental illness can't feel people who have. They will not understand the thoughts that hit me everyday. I guess this is what I'm feeling. Thoughts rushing through my brain that I have many diseases or that I will die just like my mom did. Ugh this will not go away unless I go to the hospital and check what's wrong with me.