Psychopath - J.JK

𝐼𝑚𝑝𝑜𝑟𝑡𝑎𝑛𝑡

Thank you all again for being interested on my story. There's just sth I have to tell you all.

I began to write this at march. Where I still had school. I worked on this story every day and night. I was really happy back then to start with sth like this. I had motivation and was really excited to write the next chapters. I told this about my best friend. She also reads this and says a lot of good comments abt my book.
But there's a problem with me. At the start, I wanted to make 50-60 chapters. I really thought I would end my first book positive. But months went by, my motivation and happiness to this book went slowly away. I don't know why. I am still trying to write as much as I can, I am still forcing myself to not end this book this soon. This shouldn't end like this. I know how it feels to be a reader and suddenly the book you liked to read is going to be deleted...

I had some mental health problems. Some family problems. Some friendship problems... just normal things which everyone has in its life. I wanted to finish this before my summer holidays ends. But now there's only 2 days left till my new school starts. I even couldn't get to write chapter 15. I don't know how I am feeling about it.
I don't want to end this book like this. Don't worry, I will still give my best to write this as long as I want it to be. I have 2 more books in my drafts, but i don't know if I should publish them or not. One is a sad story and one is a dirty school story (if you know what I mean). I wrote them all with excitement and motivation. But now I am asking myself, why don't I have them anymore?

I am sooo confused about myself. I don't know how long you all waiting just to read a chapter for 5 minutes and then wait another years. I feel so bad that I let you all waiting. I am sorry if I can't be like other writers: publish a new chapter everyday and make sure that my readers are satisfied with it. I am mad about myself. I am still writing on chapter 14 and didn't even finished it yet...
I know, y'all are also mad at me. I am soo sorry. I really mean it. I have some issues to think up new ideas for the next chapters. Would you mind to maybe give me ideas? •-•
I know it's weird to ask smth like this, but this is my first book what means I am new to these kind of stuff. I really try hard to make everything better and better. But I feel like I am going down.
My one side says to stop being a writer and should focus only to the things I am interested to. And my other side says I should not end this and keep doing till my 3 books are finished. Maybe there will be some more. Although I want to write, I don't have the motivation anymore. I hope you all could understand me. I am sorry if I explained it too complicated or took wrong phrases. English is not my mother tongue and I am trying to be better on it. So ignore the mistakes and just focus on the thing what I wanted to tell y'all.

I am again sooo thankful to all of my readers who keep their ass waiting for this stupid book. I might be one of the worst authors, but I would still give my best just for y'all. I am also happy if I have only one reader. It's still enough for me. But I hope you all are okay. Everyone should be happy. You all are just great!