Finding the reason

Chapter 2: The Flame

While on my way to school, I looked around and observed my surroundings since I left too early.I see the same activities and scenarios from different people. Few of them were already busy preparing their store and ready to serve the customers. Some got things hurriedly done because they'll be late for work.People who look tired and just came home from night work. Some just woke up and lazily doze off. I see happy couples being in love, but there were also families who fight with each other with matching flying plates and shattering of glasses. Also, peasants sleeping on the streets. Just by looking at these people makes me more sick at LIFE!

What's so good about life when everything bounds to end?
What are we really living for?

I always questioned my life, but the truth is I already knew the answers. I can't just accept the fact that these things need to be this way. I can't just handle everything.

I feel empty, and at the same time, afraid of losing everything when in the first place I don't have a single anything.

Though I decided to CHANGE, but everything is shaken whenever I see the FACTS about life. Poverty, sickness, temporary happiness, betrayal and etc.
I'm used of being dull, living my life ordinarily. I just can't afford to get out from my comfort zone. The simplest yet the hardest thing a man could do is the willingness to take a step for a change. Sad to say, I'm stuck. My motivation was not enough.

I just knew why I'm like this.
I knew how to change my life.
I knew what, why, and how.
But that's all.

I'm lazy =_=…

The fire I had before was not the same fire I have now.
It's hardly on flame, and just with one blow darkness will surely prevail....
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My thoughts were cut off when I reached the university.

Fuuka: okay!, Let's do this. Let's see if the things will be the same as before. I need to find myself!.

Gambatte ne!. ^_^
Fighting!

Fuuka is now on her 4th year in college.
She's looking forward for the spark she's been looking for.
But life won't easily give it to her.
She'll face more undertakings.
Let's see how will she deal all of them. ^_^