Decisions that can change

Love is Death

The only thing that will keep us apart, but graduation. He is a grade ahead of me and this is his year that he is graduating so at the end of the year we are forced to get split up and it is the hardest thing to do. Is this how it feels to fall in love,can't take my mind off him his silky touch his radiant looks now I know what love is at first sight. But I don't think it was love n though I mean I thought I liked him but when it started to happen when I say love you it does not feel like I mean it. It is like I don't have feelings for him but for someone else and I can't bring myself together to tell him that I like someone else but you let him go slowly and then until he leaves the place I know it might break his heart it is like sugar that is sour and not sweet. But the time comes to tell him that I can't love him anymore, I walk up to him and say "Look we had some fun but my feelings are not there any more." For the next few days I felt guilt in my heart like it was the wrong thing to do but I just feel empty and not well about myself.

Time to go through another day I wish I could ask the new person in my heart out but I can't. It finally happens I ask, but I am so afraid he will say no and he doesn't he says "Yes" I leap with joy saying to myself why did I choose someone who is clingy; He always wants to kiss or have sex but that's not the kind of person I was expecting. he is so far I had to dump him before it got out of control. That is not what I want in a relationship. But I have reasons right nothing is good or bad but I think I made the right choice but it does not sit right in my mind I feel bad that but when I see him in the hall I see that depressed look on his face.

So, I go to talk to him at his house and with my back to him I feel like something will happen in the corner of my eye I can see him lock the door he says so why did you stop by here I thought you did want me. I reply I don't but you've been acting weird and I wanted to talk to you, about it. we are all concerned for you. he grab a cloth off the table and starts strangling me "No!" I say losing my breath I try screaming but I am out of breath know. I faint, the next day I am awake but I can't feel anything I'm in a bog, where the hell am I, I say to myself I hear this faint noise in the distance I yell out and say hello can you help me I think I'm lost there is no one there. All you can see is the crackling sound of sticks and the rustling leaves in the wind.