Solitude

I Loved You

I saw you from far away
At first,
The way you would brighten your surroundings
By simply existing just,,

You would carry your heart at sleeve
Not afraid at all,
Maybe that was the reason
You began to fall,,

Oh, it was painful alright
To watch you fall for my brother,
To have you see the world in one sibling
And not even acknowledge the other,,

Of course you would love him
He is perfect, is he not?
Sweet, caring, charming
As you say, and I quote "hot",,

I needed you to notice me
And I made you too,
Even if it was for a fight
At least you didn't told me to shoo,,

I'd always pick on you
Till you'd get frustrated,
But i just couldn't get enough of you
I couldn't be sated,,

My jerk of a brother
Made you his "friend",
While he was out with
Tons of girlfriends,,

I was happy
I was sad,
Happy he didn't touch what's mine
Sad that you were sad,,

I went away for a few years
Using all my will power,
To not just run back
In the arms of my little flower,,

When I came back
My heart broke,
You were changed
Walls around you like a rock,,

But you still loved him
And that's what hurted the most,
To see you like that
Like you were lost,,

I decided its time for a change
To let you see the real him,
What a wolf he was
In a sheep's skin,,

It took quite some time
But I managed to have you trust me,
That I would not push you down
From a eight foot tree,,

It was more than enough
That you didn't hated me guts,
Because that question for years
Had me going nuts,,

And one day
I ripped the band aid off,
Letting you see the real him
With his mask totally off,,

You were disheartened
Were you not?
To finally know that
He wasn't that "hot",,

You regretted those years
Pinning after his two-sided face,
Running with all your strength
In that meaningless race,,

Oh, but I'm here
And I will always be,
I'd always loved you
Even if you didn't like me,,

With time we grew closer
From friends to best friends,
We would fight
We Would make amends,,

Then the miracle happened
The one I'd been hoping for,
You began to like me
Neither as a friend, brother nor,,

I was ecstatic
But I didn't wanted to mess up,
It was hard
To keep myself from glowing up,,

In another couple weeks
You were officially mine,
Going on cheesy dates
Drinking on some white wine,,

The next few months were a bliss
You said "I like you",
That made me scared
To say just how much I love you,,

That night I was sleeping peacefully
When I got the call,
The call that ruined me
Once and for all,,

You were in a car accident
The doctors did try,
But you were gone
And I didn't even got to say goodbye.