The Boy

Still Alive

So here he was, numb, ashamed, broken, but mostly disappointed...

this suicide attempt was just another failure, much like him.

Some time after his visit in hospital, the boy had been recovering and in therapy. He hated it though, he couldn't get the words out to describe his feelings. It seemed like everything was wrong in his life but.... there was this girl.

He had been chatting with her on Skype almost everyday for the past six months, he loved her, she made him happy, she made him feel not so alone. She was the last precious thing in his life and although they had not met face to face they were in love. This girls name was Alex, she was beautiful, clever and to him, perfect. She made him feel insecure sometimes when she'd flirt with guys at her high school. It was never intentional or at least that's what she said.

A while later it seemed like everyone had forgotten his suicide attempt so he began to become a little more active, he was going to school in the days and talking to Alex at night, she lived in the US and he was in the UK so it seemed like the only time they could talk was usually very late at night for the boy. He'd often have bad days at school or oversleep but the tiredness was well worth it. For a while things started looking up, the two had became very close despite the distance and he was sure he wanted to spend the rest of his life with her. But then it happened, the day the boy had been dreading for what seemed like for ever. He was sat alone in his room when suddenly he got a call on Skype, he went to answer it too see a very serious and worrying look on her face. She said "My mom is here, she knows about us. We cant be together anymore". Shock and heartbreak soon overwhelmed the boy with emotion and before he could even reply tears were dropping onto his bed. When they had started dating they agreed that Alex's mom could never find out as she was certain she would disapprove, their entire relationship had been a secret for so long and now it was out, her mom was furious. The boy pleaded and begged but it was hopeless. The call ended. He knew he'd never see her face again... never hear her sing to him when he had a bad day. No more being there for each other.

This is where it ends for the boy. The kid who was merely sixteen, later killed himself. He was found a bloody mess by his mom, Alex would never even know....

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Ali,

I love you, i always will. I know its not your fault we had to end it but i hope i made you happy while we were together, you'll always be in my heart <3