Everything I Wanted-Mason Thames

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The flash of the cameras blinds me, I never thought this would really be my future, me, here at the premiere of a movie I was a part of, with some fantastic people I immediately tied up with.

Maddy and I fantasised a lot about this day, although for her it wasn't the first time she acted in a movie she was so excited as I was. Maddy and I are the same age, we share so many habits and so many preferences, at times I feel like we are the same person. From the first moment I set foot on the set she was the first to come forward trying to put me at ease, and I would say she succeeded. It's also thanks to her that she managed to unlock me if I'm at this premiere now.

In addition to Maddy I also tied a lot with Tristan, now he's like a brother for me we talk about everything and I can always open up in the best way when I'm in his company. And then there's Brady. Brady and I are like a little sister and big brother even though our relationship was born out of a misunderstanding, he was convinced that I had stolen his chocolate donut, the last one left that belonged to him by right, which is far-fetched also because that day I had devoured 4 of them and I was too full for the tiramisu too. However he was firmly convinced that he was right and we started to quarrel, eventually Tristan admitted to having eaten it and for punishment Brady and I almost choked him with tickling after a run of at least 15 minutes. Even with Ethan I have a magnificent relationship, it's that kind of relationship in which he is like a father to me but also for everyone else, there is always, even off the set and if I couldn't make an emotion act well he was there ready to explain to me and teach me how to do it together with Scott.

And as I think about the relationship with Mason, here he is, who looks for my gaze and then joins me and punches me jokingly doing his usual stupid grimace.

There was an exchange of laughter between us, and then resumed the interviews.

"Are you having fun?" He asks me, and seems almost silly to me as a question.

"My feet hurt for my shoes but I'm so happy that I can hardly feel the pain," I answer by playing with the ring I have on my finger.

Mason knows how important this day is to me, and he also knows that unfortunately I couldn't be an actress when I was a child because of my mother.

He smiles and I melt when I see his light dimples. He and I are very attached, we have known each other since before the movie, he is my best friend and it is only thanks to him if I am now here to autograph my posters and to enjoy the affection of people who love me and the work I have done.

Mason and I met at dance class, I remember well that day, he stood by the bars and warming up under everyone's confused eyes, he was the only boy in a girls' room and none of them spoke to him because they found him strange.

However, I was sorry to see his sad face and I went to talk to him, from there we became inseparable and had to promise us a dessert to get us away from dance lessons. He has been very close to me over the years, especially after my mother's death, if it weren't for him maybe I would have given up everything, acting, sweets and our beloved lessons.

This memory suddenly made me want to look at him, I cross his eyes and start studying its colour, the dark chestnut seems made on purpose for its features.
I understand that I'm disturbingly staring at it too late when a photographer catches our attention, I look away slightly embarrassed and start smiling at the cameras while I still hear Mason watching every single movement of mine, eventually copies my ease and looks away and then take a slight grin. He leaves me to Maddy to reach out to others for group photos and she starts studying me with her gaze, even though there was nothing to study, but she is like a psychic, she understands everyone's emotions and feelings before the person herself. The premier premiere ends and we head to the post premiere party. We are all there, we are happy and excited and I show it a little too much jumping everywhere, but this is also what manages to make me appreciate by my colleagues and friends, the ability to be always extremely happy in all situations. There was a time when I stayed alone with Maddy, she immediately approached and sat in the chair next to mine where Tristan was sitting a few moments before, she started saying something but I was too excited since I couldn't listen to her, but with her very kind manners she started shaking me to make me listen to what she was saying, she was there to repeat "I know".

After a while I recover and, processing that sentence, I have a doubt

"Do you know what?"

"I know about you and Mason..."

I didn't understand, I was still there trying to understand something.

Me and Mason? What are you talking about?

"Me and Mason ?? Maddy, are you delirious? Did the day hit you in the head? Can you tell me what you mean?"

"There is something between you two, I feel it when he look at you, you both have something that connects you, you are made for each other, and if there is anything between you I want to know now!"

I was even more increduously with her words, is there anything between me and Mason? No no this time his psychic ability was wrong.

"Maddy, what are you saying? There's nothing between me and Mason except a good one is wonderful friendship, you know that we've known each other since we were little and he's my best friend, and then even if he were I would never make up with him, I would guess everything we created."

Maddy remained silent for a few seconds but her voice lit up in my ears, "Up but come on y/n you wouldn't ruin anything, in fact other things would be created in your relationship".

This time I was the one who was silent.

In the meantime the others returned and the evening continues until it ends.

I went back to the hotel with my father who at the premiere was there to support me, my admirer n2, because the n1 will be my mother forever.

I got on my bed, turned on my playlist and thought about Maddy's words. What if those long looks of today were caused by something else? No impossible I just can't platonically love Mason so much, nothing more. And surrounded by these thoughts my eyes closed leaving room only for a long regenerating night full of memories of that magnificent day.