I read a post the other day on another platform.
It was about people living past their teens who had no intention of do so and had no plan for their lives.
These people now struggle, as I do, to figure out what they want from their lives because they never thought they would make it past 18 years old.
I talked about plans for my future; go to university in a different country, travel the world, become a doctor of science.
Those plans were never going to pan out because I wasn't supposed to be alive after high school.
I didn't excel in school, doing the minimum to keep up appearances of leaving the town I was in and live that big life I said I wanted. I didn't put the real effort into myself or my future because I didn't see a future for myself.
My life changed so rapidly in those few short years. Falling in love, meeting my best friends, getting my first job on my own.
I met the love of my life and suddenly saw a future. A future I have no means of obtaining becuase I have no motivation to do more than what I'm at now.
I want a better life, I want to start a family, I want to be truly happy. I want to have a dream job.
How did I go from planning my young death to struggling to live day to day until I can figure out what the rest of my future looks like or how I obtain that future I can see?
I can feel that future at the edge of my finger tips, too far to truly grasp but so close I can see it.
Does anyone know what truly lives in the future ahead?
