It's raining hard. I miss brother.. I'm down again. I miss him alot :(..
I want to meet him.
He may be more older.
I want to meet him, that's my final decision.
My goal is to meet him, and enjoy life with him.
Him.
Him.
Him.
There will be alot Of word's here!
Hehe.
Because him.
He's amazing, I can't describe how..
Amazing he is! He's cool.
I think this'll be mostly “I talk about HIM” book than a VENT book!
Haha.
I've always wanted to meet someone like him.
In year's.
Waiting.
And I waited.
Waited, waiting.
Staying alive.
It IS worth it.
Because I met him.
3 year's siblingship?
Right? I forgot.
Even tho I met (Bear, Gwen, and R/Rhianna) the longest, I WILL choose him over them ofcourse.
I'm smiling, I'm talking about him.
He makes me happy.
Everytime.
8:20. Sept. 8, 2022 Tuesday :
Uhm.
I don't remember when I started at all, I'm upset without him.
Eh..
I'll be ok.
There's no class at Friday! Yay!
I can spend so much time..
With him!
Haha.
I'll list down when I have class.
So I can tell him.
Class:
Sunday: None.
Monday: 12:20/00-5:00
Tuesday: 1:00-4:00
Wednesday (Wedsen-day lmao): 12:20/00-5:00
Thursday: 1:00-3:50 (maybe 4:00..)
Friday: None.
Staurday: None.
(Again, I have no wifi ((got destroyed)) So I won't be online at 12:20/00 and 1:00, Bear comes home later since HIS class starts more early and ends more late.)
And, uhm.
Brothers: “please rest well at home”
I'm not.
I'm actually not resting well.
I miss him.
I'm unwell now.
I'm cold.
I'm not happy.
I'm upset.
Just upset.
I still love him tho, I'll love him forever!
Just.. really feeling down without him.
I don't have my light/happy source with me.
He's my safe space.
I feel comfortable, safe, happy, and well with him.
He's like my comfort..
An amazing comfort!
He's so kind, caring, generous and amazingly excellent person.
I just want to hug him.
I check every social we know eachother on.
(Disc, Twitter, Youtube/YT, Tiktok/TT, Roblox AND wattpad.)
Just to know if he's there! Like messaged me back.
I worry for him more.
Something did happen earlier.
I worry for him alot now..
I mean.. he just.. nevermind, that'll be private till I have his permission.
Hehe, siblings only!
I have mosquito bites, they're so itchy.
I'm gonna end here.
I won't end the book! I'll stop writing here.
Bye.
Ended at: 8:58. Sept 8, 2022 Thursday.
9:00 Sept 8, 2022 Thursday:
I'm sorry! I can't stop talking about how cool he is.
If I were you, I wish you were me.
Having to exprience happiness everytime he comes around.
Hehe.
Everything!
I'm sorry for what has happened to him.
Alot.
But that's a secret!
Only siblings tell secrets!
I only tell my secrets to him.
I promise to keep stuff he tells me UNTIL I have PERMISSION to talk about it!
I promise to be better!!
Unless if he says soooo..
I don't want his sister to confiscate his phone..
I mean, I even make him so-
Noope! Nuh-uh! I am not telling!
Not without permission.
Cleo keeps secrets!
Forever!
Only his secrets tho...
You don't wanna be my friend if you have secrets for me!
I'll tell him!
Hehe.
I'm sorry.
I won't tell it if it's REALLY private!
Talking to myself about him is just so fun!
Because he's included ofcourse..
Because he's fun, and funny!
Hehe
Hehehehehehehe
Hehehehehehehehehehehehehehheee
Anyway!
Even tho.. We have problems, we WILL always find a way to interact right?
Even I still have school, and my wifi is destroyed randomly.
I found a way tho!
Using bear's wifi.. meuehehehe.
I don't know what to doo..
I like writing about him.
Like talking to myself!
About him.
If you don't want to see my write daily-
About him, then don't look at this page!!
It is.. top word's! (Soon) for now it has 690 word's! Cause imma end it here!
Cyaa!
Ended at: 9:07 Sept 8, 2022 Thursday.
10:23 Sept 8, 2022 Thursday:
I'm awake at this time, yeah. I am!
My birthday is actually at Sept. 25th!
I honestly forgot the uhm.. Exmaple:
“2012” thing. Number thing.
I'm talking about him attt..
10:25.
Wow-
Anyway.
He's cool!
I can't face the world without him.
Maybe he can't face the world without ME!
we both would die if we didn't meet.
In die I mean suïcïde.
Ended at: 11:08 Sept 8, Thursday.
7:04 Sept 9, 2022 Friday:
Kill me.
I'm kind of joking.
I just miss him.
Ended at 7:05 Sept 9, 2022 Friday.
9:27 Sept 9, 2022 Friday:
I ran out of motivation..
Time to go ahead andd uhhh..
Talk again!
Yay!
I want to talk to him tho.
Like ... Not talk to myself about him.
Not in online either.
Real life.
I want to talk.
Face to face, talk.
Talking.
Because Bear isn't here.
And yeah.
We can't talk.
I miss him.
I want to talk to him.
Daily.
Face to face.
Online.
EVERY single social we have.
I want to talk.
That's my wish.
Just to spend time, talk with him, and together FOREVER.
Just the two siblings.
Just us.
The two..
Would it be heaven?
It would, for me.
I don't know for brother.
I hope it is.
Heaven.
Just to talk with him.
Heaven.
I love him.
We love eachother equally.
I would do anything for him.
So I can talk to him.
More.
More.
More.
I just want to meet him.
So we can be official siblings.
We have many reasons to be siblings.
One reason: We love eachother forever and equally.
He said there's 60+ reasons on the list.
I doubt that.
Theres more than 60+.
Heh.
I'm joking.
I don't think there's 60+ reasons.
He definitely deserves someone else, he should just leave me.
.
.
.
I broke my promise.
I promised him.
That I'll never force him to leave.
Will he forgive me.
He will, right.
Right.
Right.
Im sorry.
I didn't mean.
I didn't mean to break it.
I'm sorry.
MOVED TO VENT BOOK.
Ended at: 9:45 Sept 9, 2022 Friday.
7:07 Sept 9, 2022 Friday:
I LOVE HIM.
HE BOOSTED MY MOOD.
I LOVE HIM.
I LOVE HIM SO FUCKING MUCH.
I LOVE HIM.
MY GOAL IS TO FUCKING BE WITH HIM FOREVER.
FUCK THE OTHERS.
HIM.
FUCKING HIM.
I LOVE HIM SO MUCH.
HE'S SO FUNNY.
I'M SO HAPPY AROUND FUCKING HIM.
I WANT TO SCREAM.
THIS BITCH.
FUCKING AMAZING.
I LOVE HIM.
HIM.
FUCKING HIM.
I LOVE HIM FOREVER.
I'LL NEVER EVER LEAVE HIM.
WHEN HE'S DEAD. I DON'T GIVE A FUCK.
I LOVE HIM, I'M DYING WITH HIM.
IF I'M DEAD. I DON'T GIVE A FUCK.
I'LL WATCH OVER HIM.
I'll give privacy.
I WILL FOREVER LOVE HIM.
FUCK THIS.
HE'S SO AMAZING.
WTF.
HE'S SO SWEET.
I LOVE HIM.
I JUST WANT TO GIVE EVERYTHING.
EVERYTHING I FUCKING HAVE.
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ILY HIM.
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HE DOESN'T DESERVE ME?!?!?!?!?!?!
HE DESERVES SOMEONE BETTER!!!!!!! AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA AND AND AND AND AND AND AND AND AND AND DYSFIABFOABSLAJD
AND I CAN'T DESCRIBE HOW AMAZING, EXCELLENT, FUCKIN WODNODFHAPCIAKFHAPFCHAIC, HE IS?!!!?!!?
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I CANNOT GET ENOUGH OF U.
ILY.
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HES SO
SO AMAZING
I CAN'T DESCRIBE HOW THO.
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ENDED. ENDED. AT 7:16 SEPT 9, 2022 FRIDAY EEEAAAHHHSSSEEE
10:34 Sept 9, 2022 Friday:
Hhmm...
I have nothing to talk about!
So nowwww...
HIMM!!!!
If I were you, I would really wish to be mee!!!
I can experience
Appreciation, acceptance, cared for, and love <3
hmm.. I'm gonna end now..
I love him.
:)
Ended at 11:47 Sept 9, 2022 Friday.
